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    mariko posted an update 1 day, 1 hour ago

    I might just have gotten a new part time job. Let’s see how it goes!

    Mood : Excited
    • That’s so wonderful @marikofujimoto, I’m so proud of you Mariko and happy for you sweetie, you will be successful in your new job Mariko, hold your head up high and go in there with confidence and a bright smile, you can do it hun, I wish you all the best Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :)[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 6 days, 16 hours ago

    Is just unbelievable how I give all my effort for nothing. Nothing. People who don’t deserve it and take advantage of me.
    I just apreciate the fact I still have my books around and my education.
    Feel absolutly miserable.

    • Anyone who takes advantage of you are not worth it @marikofujimoto, you are such a kind, beautiful and special angel who truly deserves compassionate people around her, please don’t feel alone sweetie, I’ll always be here for you and so will the BT community, I care about and love you so much Mariko, always be the fantastic human-being that you…[Read more]

    • Get away from people like that as soon as you notice their true intentions Mariko. There’s always people who take the easy ways and try to get everything from others without making any kind of effort. You don’t deserve that kind of treatment. You’ll find people who care and love you Mariko, don’t give up!

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    mariko posted an update 1 week ago

    Flashbacks hitting again hurray.

    • Oli replied 1 week ago

      Don’t let bad or negative flashbacks get you down @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and incredible angel who deserves happiness, hope and brightness in her life, I want to see you feeling wonderful sweetie, remember to look forward as your future will be so awesome, don’t let your past stand in your way Mariko, you have so much…[Read more]

    • And they usually come unexpectedly and in the worst at the times… However, the same way they appeared, they’ll disappear. Try an enjoyable activity for you and focus as much as you can into it Mariko, so you can get through these flashbacks easily.

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 2 days ago

    Does someone know a good platform for writing? Similar to blogspot

    • I would try Tumblr, Wattpad or Fictionpress @marikofujimoto, I’m sure you will create a wonderful blog that inspires others Mariko, stay fabulous and always be beautiful, amazing and wonderful Mariko, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 1 week, 4 days ago

    After so many years struggling, it was suggested to me I might suffer from body dysmorphia.
    I decided to read about it and nothing made so much sense before.

    • You are so beautiful inside and out @marikofujimoto, love and embrace every part of yourself sweetie, please look in the mirror and smile at the amazing, special and brilliant angel you see staring back at you, remember you are pretty, cute and fabulous Mariko, hold your head up high hun and always be kind to yourself, you can do it, inbox me…[Read more]

    • I can relate to an extent, it seems as if feeling the way I do about myself and how i look is getting worse and worse

    • When you’re reading about something, and it just feels like every single detail that is exposed is describing yourself, it’s heavily enlightening. Use that information to help yourself feel better and improve. And never stop fighting Mariko, you are strong!

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 2 days ago

    What do I do with so many feelings? :|

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    mariko posted an update 2 weeks, 2 days ago

    What do I do with so many feelings? :|

    • Focus on building up your positive feelings and emotions @marikofujimoto, face the negative and bad thoughts with courage and turn them into brightness and happiness sweetie, remember you are such a beautiful angel who truly deserves all the best out of life, everything will be OK Mariko, believe in yourself hun and keep going forward, you can do…[Read more]

    • One approach would be trying to identify all of those feelings one by one. If they are negative, work with one at a time so they finally dissipate or become a positive one. Don’t rush things and give yourself all the time you need Mariko, you are a strong fighter. Believe in yourself!

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks ago

    University be like: Skipping classes to actually study and do piles of homework you have..

    Mood : Anxious
    • Oli replied 3 weeks ago

      Do work as hard as you can but remember to take breaks and look after yourself too @marikofujimoto, you will be successful at university Mariko and you will make all your dreams come true sweetie, stay positive and keep going, always do your best hun and believe in yourself, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent Mariko, stay…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 3 days ago

    Can’t wait for today to end. I need to rest.

    • Do get as much rest and relaxation as you need @marikofujimoto, remember to always look after yourself Mariko emotionally, mentally and physically, don’t let the stress of each day break you down sweetie, be kind to yourself and keep going forward, you can do it hun, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    Going down the same road. I don’t know why I attempt to maintain relationships with toxic people.
    They were that way before me, not like they’ll change.

    • You are such a beautiful, kind and lovely angel who truly deserves compassionate people around her sweetie @marikofujimoto, I would cut out all the horrible, toxic and mean people and influences in your life Mariko, focus on being with positivity, brightness and hope, you can do it Mariko, everything will be OK, inbox me anytime if you want to…[Read more]

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update Finding genuine friends is so hard, no one cares about being a good friend or having genuine events / moments / convos!!!!! I give up. View

    @invincible relatable. Seriously.
    People are way ”me me me” nowdays. Nothing genuine :/
    Sorry girl, you do deserve good friends though.

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    mariko posted an update 4 weeks ago

    So nervous and anxious for tomorrow… back to classes… and socialise :|

    • Oli replied 4 weeks ago

      You’ll do great in your classes @marikofujimoto, please don’t be afraid or nervous sweetie, work as hard as you can and let your bright, compassionate and kind personality shine through, you can do it Mariko, remember to stay upbeat beautiful angel and keep going, you can do it Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong,…[Read more]

    • I hope your first day went well, Mariko! Focus on learning as much as you can and stay close to those you feel comfortable. Sending you lots of luck and good vibes!

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Sorry for just being so negative lately.
    Have alot in my chest and need to vent here, is the only place I have.
    Usually I help people on Blah but.. need to vent :|

    • that is totally OK, we all have those periods in our lives where we need to just vent and let it out. ♥ here for you!

    • Do let your thoughts, feelings and emotions out @marikofujimoto, we are all here to help, support and be there for you Mariko, the BT community will always be there for you and so am I, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • You don’t need to apologize, Mariko. We are here to help and be helped, and we are more than glad to listen and help you <3

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    So , I’m understanding of your past. All your struggles , trauma and insecurities.
    But when I relapse because of my past, you act like a fucking idiot.
    Right.

    • Don’t let your past struggles get you down @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and wonderful angel sweetie who deserves supportive, loving and compassionate people around her, surround yourself with people who will show you empathy and kindness Mariko, you are so much stronger than your traumatic past and struggles hun, always be…[Read more]

    • People want someone who understand them, but some won’t understand us in return. It does feel very frustrating and hopeless, and I personally feel like a fool when it happens to me. But remember that’s not your fault. You didn’t found the right person, keep looking and don’t give up Mariko.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Love is fake.

    • Everyone deserves to feel loved, appreciated and cared for, you do too @marikofujimoto, you will find love, positivity and happiness in life Mariko, don’t give up on finding true love Mariko, you will meet your soulmate one day, someone who will love you unconditionally and treat you like a princess will come your way sweetie, try to stay upbeat…[Read more]

    • I feel the same

    • Unfortunately sometimes we encounter fake love along our lives. If we are lucky, we’ll finally meet the ones that will give us all the true, unconditional love we deserve. Never lose hope Mariko.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Been struggling alot. Really.
    The good news is that I’ll be learning chinese this semester, something to look up to…

    • Please don’t let your struggles get you down @marikofujimoto, you will make it through this Mariko because you have so much strength, courage and bravery inside and out sweetie, keep fighting and know you will win all your battles Mariko, everything will be OK hun, hold your head up high and always be the beautiful, incredible and fantastic angel…[Read more]

    • Hoping things will get better for you! ♥♥ Awesome, that is fascinating!

    • Yes, definitely! Learning a new language is definitely something to look forward to! But if you ever need to talk, i’m here to listen. I hope too that things do get better as well.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    I hate people. I actually do.
    Not sure if I want others to die/ be gone or for me to be.
    Humans are pure darkness and evil.

    • Don’t let horrible and mean people get you down @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, lovely, incredible and special angel who deserves to be appreciated and cared for sweetie, remember to always surround yourself with positivity, hope and brightness, you are such a kind angel who needs good people around her Mariko, I’ll always be here for…[Read more]

    • As a species we can get to be very hateful. All the harm we do by destroying, polluting, treating others bad and disrespectfully, torturing, killing. This list could go on and on, but seeing the bright side of this, we are also able of wonderful and amazing things, trying to make this life a better one. The good thing about darkness is that you…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    One of the few things that heal me, my soul, is music.

    • Keep listening to music that makes you smile and feel wonderful @marikofujimoto, if it soothes your soul and makes you feel awesome, that’s what matters Mariko, always be the beautiful angel that you are sweetie, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Nostalgia.

    • Keep listening to music that makes you smile and feel positive @marikofujimoto, always be the beautiful, special and wonderful angel that you are sweetie, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • When the songs from the past awaken peaceful and wonderful feelings, they feel like a bless. Thank you for sharing it with us @marikofujimoto :)

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Extremly nervous lately.
    So much pressure on my shoulders…
    Let’s hope I at least have a good year in university.
    Classes will start at 17th September.
    For the people who already started, or are about to start: I wish you all a wonderful school year.

    Mood : Anxious
    • Don’t let your struggles get you down @marikofujimoto, I want to see you truly smiling and making each day bright, amazing and fantastic sweetie, you will be successful at university, stay positive Mariko and know your future will be so wonderful, always be kind to yourself and remember there is always hope and light at the end of the tunnel…[Read more]

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