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    mariko posted a new activity comment 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    In reply to: Marta posted an update Yesterday I officially started working as a nurse in a nursing home. I was terribly nervous, but after two days I’m very happy and satisfied. I felt more than welcomed by my coworkers, and […] View

    @m1s1m3 I have so much apreciation for nurses. You work all your lives helping others.
    Little random, but when I was diagnosed with IBS the nurses did more than doctors. Was thanks to them that I managed to find a diagnosis.
    So I’m sure your patients are in good hands and enjoying your help and company.
    Thank you for making this world better

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    mariko posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    Don’t ever settle for someone toxic.
    Just got rid of a toxic person in my life. I deserve better.

    • You are so right @marikofujimoto, do get rid of toxic people Mariko and surround yourself with love, positivity and compassion, you truly deserve caring people in your life sweetie who will always stick by you and be there for you, I want to see you feeling fantastic because you are a beautiful angel Mariko, you will lead a wonderful life hun,…[Read more]

    • It’s wonderful to see you so determinate, Mariko. I do agree with you, you don’t deserve to be surrounded by people who don’t make you feel good and don’t care about you. You are a wonderful, compassive, kind, talented and empathic person, who deserves,to be surrounded by caring and loving people. I know you’ll find the right people Mariko.…[Read more]

    • This is so true, I have to tell myself this often, to be honest. I needed to see this. I am so glad you got rid of someone toxic, it is a hard thing to do. ♥♥YOU do deserve better and no one should ever settle. Keep on moving past this like a radiant star

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    I don’t believe in love.
    When you wait years for someone…. you stop believing.
    I only have myself.

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      You are such a beautiful, special and incredible angel who truly deserves love and happiness in her life @marikofujimoto, don’t give up on finding your soulmate Mariko, one day you will meet your knight in shining armour sweetie, someone special will make you so happy, a wonderful partner will come your way Mariko, stay positive hun and never…[Read more]

    • It is important to rely on oneself indeed, because in the end, we are going to spend our whole life with ourselves. It’s also important to rely in other people; people who love us no matter what. Finding them might be very arduous, and take a ton of time, but we’ll find them. Don’t give up, Mariko, I know you’ll find a person who truly loves…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    Welcome to all new members. If you ever need help, you can always tag me or PM me

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      It’s great to see all the new members here on BT @marikofujimoto, I second what Mariko has said, if any new members ever need to chat or vent, they can always inbox me or any of the lovely, sweet and kind angels like Mariko, we will always be here to support you :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    There comes a point in life that you’re so done with hurting and fake people, that you just want to be loved for once.

    • So relatable. It’s exhausting, discouraging, and frustrating, to bump into fake people again, and again. Despite that, never lose hope Mariko, because as well as fake people, there are also good and kind people. I care about you Mariko, and everyone in BT do as well. I know you’ll find and surround yourself with people who truly love you and…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      You are such a lovely, beautiful and kind angel who truly deserves to feel loved, appreciated, cared for and valued @marikofujimoto, get rid of toxic people Mariko and surround yourself with all the joy and happiness in the world, @m1s1m3 is so right, the BT community will always be here for you and so will I Mariko, always remember to look for…[Read more]

    • UGH, I know. But I hope you can find the real people who will give you what you DESERVE: love. ♥♥ I’m here for you always.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month ago

    :o they activated new members and questions back! Omg I’m shocked

    • It’s shocking to see it, right? Seeing that BT can be even a better place it’s very encouraging!

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      Indeed @marikofujimoto and @m1s1m3, it’s wonderful to see the member registration page up and questions back, hopefully BT will become active again and this wonderful community will continue to thrive and grow, this community truly needs more kind and beautiful angels like yourselves Mariko and Marta, compassionate individuals who make this site…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Self care is the most important thing ever.
    Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
    Take care of yourself. Love yourself. Even if it means distancing yourself from others.

    • You are so right @marikofujimoto, it is important to look after yourself physically, emotionally and mentally, remember to always do what makes you happy when you are doing self care, watch something that makes you smile, read, draw, go out some place fun, eat your favourite food, spend time with people you love or with your adorable pet, do have…[Read more]

    • I couldn’t say it better. I do agree with you Mariko, we must take care of ourselves. Of course we have to take care of each other, and help people in need. Although that doesn’t mean we have to let our health be consumed so everyone else can have theirs restored. So, just as you said, never forget to take care and love yourselves!

    • Thank you. I really needed this reminder. Hope you are doing well.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    I’ve been through alot in my life. Abuse, mental health, bullying…
    However lately I notice alot of hatred towards men. So, as someone who has suffered I want to say that yes, there are evil men. But there’s also wonderful men out there.
    There’s good and bad people in both males and females.
    Just wanted to spread some love.

    • That’s an amazing and a necessary way of thinking Mariko! You are so right, there’s good and evil everywhere. There’s no use labeling a certain group of people as inherently bad, since that’s the best way to spread hate towards them. We need more love in our world. Thank you for your words! <3

    • Always focus on the good in the world @marikofujimoto, help those in need and shine a light on all the heart-warming and positive things that go on Mariko, don’t let the negativity get you down, you are correct sweetie, there is much bad in the world but like you said, spread the love, compassion, empathy and hope, you are a survivor Mariko,…[Read more]

    • Yes, so true! This needs to be said. People, regardless of who they are can be good & bad and are good and bad, though I believe most people are good when it comes to who they are & specific issues should be addressed instead of making generalizations

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    The more time goes by , I wonder if real friends and love even exist.

    • Everyone deserves true love and wonderful friends around them @marikofujimoto, you do too Mariko, I want you to know that I care about you and love you, the BT community will always be here to support you too Mariko, any person would be so lucky to have you as a friend or partner sweetie, you will meet your soulmate and knight in shining armour…[Read more]

    • As time goes by it makes it easy to think it doesn’t ,really. But I think it does, it’s just rare and we must allow ourselves to find it and experience it by leaving the toxicity around us both physically & mentally

    • I think as time goes by, we become more experienced about relationships, feelings, and emotions. In the beginning we might consider everyone as a friend, but as we grow older we become able to spot toxic relationships, temporary relationships, colleagues, etc. Some people say we get more “demanding”. I personally think we acquiere a better…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    I know people have it worst. But I can not handle my weight gain.
    I feel extremly disgusting and ugly.

    • Please love and embrace every part of yourself @marikofujimoto, you are beautiful, perfect and incredible inside and out Mariko, look in the mirror and smile at the amazing angel you see looking back at you, your body is your temple Mariko, remember to always be kind to yourself and never give up sweetie, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you…[Read more]

    • People having it worse does not make your feelings any less valid, Mariko. You have the right to express yourself without feeling bad about it. About the weight gain, iI’ve been there myself, and it’s something that can be very distressing. Remember that every flaw that you see when you look at youtself in the mirror, it’s your brain being over…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Maybe I’m being lame but I keep coming to blah thanks to 3 people: @oliver , @m1s1m3
    and @invincible . You three always give amazing advice, super sweet and kind words, and are super friendly. You make Blah an awesome platform <3

    • Glad we can be there to help and support you @marikofujimoto, you are such a compassionate, kind and lovely angel who makes BT such a wonderful place too Mariko, you inspire so many of us with wise, insightful and honest advice, you are all beautiful Mariko, @m1s1m3 and @invincible, this community needs more angels like Marta, Mariko and Cecelia,…[Read more]

    • And just how super sweet it’s this? That brightened my day Mariko, thank you for such kind words! I’m happy to be here and be able to help as much as I can. I personally think that if everyone of us, within our posibilities, were more kind to each other, we’d make everyone’s life a bit better. You are all amazing and so nice, @marikofujimoto, [Read more]

    • Please stay strong, keep your chin up!

    • The same can be said about you, Mariko ♥ You are so strong and I am always here for you ♥♥ Rooting for you & proud of how much you can get throughx

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    I don’t feel ok about myself, but one thing that helps in chinese class.
    Everyone is SO nice, actually nice. The teacher is 100% wonderful and explains very well.
    My negative thoughts go for a while when I’m there.
    Is the only thing keeping me sane.

    • It’s great to see that your Chinese class is helping you feel positive, upbeat and happy @marikofujimoto, keep studying and working hard sweetie, you will become fluent in Chinese soon Mariko, don’t let negative thoughts get you down hun, always surround yourself with love and things that put a bright smile on your face, remember you are an…[Read more]

    • It’s so wonderful that you found a source of positiveness and happiness Mariko! Spending your time doing something you enjoy it’s great, but it’s even better when this activity brings you peace, valuable experiences and people who cares about you. Keep doing such an amazing work @marikofujimoto, step by step you’ll achieve your goals. Never…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    What do I even do with this depression? It’s going really badly again.
    Thinking of going into the uni services to ask for help but… gives me anxiety.

    • Please don’t let depression, anxiety and sadness get you down @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and amazing angel who deserves to feel positive, happy and upbeat, do reach out for help and support when you need it sweetie, I want to see you lead a truly fabulous life Mariko, get your thoughts, feelings and emotions out in a good…[Read more]

    • I’m sorry to read you’re going through this, Mariko. Sometimes asking for help can be very distressing, so it might be helpful to think about it as another similar activity you do on a daily basis. People at the uni services are there to listen and help you, just as we are here for you. You can try to think of them as the BT comunity. Also, if…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Anyone here does art? Draw, sing, write, etc?

    • I don’t @marikofujimoto, but that’s only because I’m horrible at most activities, those 3 included, but I’m sure you are a talented artist, singer and writer sweetie, do create something wonderful and share it with the world Mariko, you can do it hun, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • Hello, Mariko. I enjoy both drawing and writing, during my free time, as well as singing when I hear a good song. Is there a reason you ask? :)

    • I enjoy drawing, writing, sewing, and crafts. Creative activities are so relaxing and fun to me. I also do enjoy singing, but my voice it’s not… very pleasant. Anyways, that’s not a thing that’ll stop my from singing like crazy in my room when I listen to my favourite songs. Do you enjoy these activities too Mariko? :)

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    mariko posted a new activity comment 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Marta posted an update Today I was reading a diary that I keep since 2011, where I write everytime my mood is at it’s worse, which has really helped me coping with bad feelings. On an entry from mid 2011, I […] View

    @m1s1m3 wow that’s genuinly impressive!! You should be super proud of yourself :)
    p.s- cosplaying is such an underrated art. Takes such talent and effort.

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Maybe is selfish, maybe is entitled, but all I want is somebody to be proud of me.
    Don’t be embarassed to be with me, to take pics with me, to talk to me.
    Tell me I’m ok.

    • I’m proud of you @marikofujimoto, you have been there for me for years on BT Mariko, you have been a positive, compassionate and kind anchor during the dark moments of depression and loneliness for me Mariko, I am so grateful to have someone as wonderful as you in my life sweetie, please know you matter to me and to the BT community Mariko, I…[Read more]

    • Not selfish either entitled. We seek for acceptance and reciprocal feelings, it’s human nature. Anybody who feels embarrassed to be with you, that does not want to talk to you, or that does not tell you that you are not okay… They are not okay for you. Someone who loves you won’t ever feel like this towards you. I’m proud of you Mariko, and…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 1 month, 4 weeks ago

    Sometimes words are not enough. Sometimes you need to see action.

    • We should always support each other with kind words and actions @marikofujimoto, be there for others by letting them know verbally that you care, but also show them physically how much you want to be a positive and comforting presence in the lives of others, you are so compassionate in every single way Mariko, keep inspiring others with warmth and…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 2 months ago

    I might just have gotten a new part time job. Let’s see how it goes!

    Mood : Excited
    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      That’s so wonderful @marikofujimoto, I’m so proud of you Mariko and happy for you sweetie, you will be successful in your new job Mariko, hold your head up high and go in there with confidence and a bright smile, you can do it hun, I wish you all the best Mariko, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :)[Read more]

    • Great to read that @marikofujimoto! I wish you all the luck in the world for this new job!! <3

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    Is just unbelievable how I give all my effort for nothing. Nothing. People who don’t deserve it and take advantage of me.
    I just apreciate the fact I still have my books around and my education.
    Feel absolutly miserable.

    • Anyone who takes advantage of you are not worth it @marikofujimoto, you are such a kind, beautiful and special angel who truly deserves compassionate people around her, please don’t feel alone sweetie, I’ll always be here for you and so will the BT community, I care about and love you so much Mariko, always be the fantastic human-being that you…[Read more]

    • Get away from people like that as soon as you notice their true intentions Mariko. There’s always people who take the easy ways and try to get everything from others without making any kind of effort. You don’t deserve that kind of treatment. You’ll find people who care and love you Mariko, don’t give up!

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    mariko posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    Flashbacks hitting again hurray.

    • Don’t let bad or negative flashbacks get you down @marikofujimoto, you are such a beautiful, special and incredible angel who deserves happiness, hope and brightness in her life, I want to see you feeling wonderful sweetie, remember to look forward as your future will be so awesome, don’t let your past stand in your way Mariko, you have so much…[Read more]

    • And they usually come unexpectedly and in the worst at the times… However, the same way they appeared, they’ll disappear. Try an enjoyable activity for you and focus as much as you can into it Mariko, so you can get through these flashbacks easily.

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