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    Mel posted an update 3 weeks, 1 day ago

    i miss being hugged and stuff. i want to be touched, hugged, anything (nothing sexual of course).

    • Everyone deserves to be loved and cared for @caramel4, you do too Mel, I can only give you virtual hugs but please know the BT community will always be here for you and so will I, always be the awesome, special and fantastic person that you are Mel, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Mel posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    i fucked up i fucked up so bad. nobody from the gc is replying to me and someone isnt either. its all my fault. all im good at is fucking things up. i want to fucking die. i dont even want to eat and my moms yelling at me constantly. i cant stop vomitting .everything hurts

    • I am not sure what is the best thing to do in this situation but it is okay to be scared. But don’t think about ending everything. It cannot be your fault alone, I believe in you. Nothing is your fault but if you let yourself keep vomiting that will be your fault, don’t let something come between your well being. If it doesn’t stop then please…[Read more]

    • Please don’t think like that @caramel4, I’m sure everything will work out, hopefully they will reply to you Mel, give it some time and see what happens, always be the wonderful, special and awesome person that you are Mel, look after yourself Mel, your mother really shouldn’t yell at you, she should support and be there for you, everything will be…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 weeks, 6 days ago

    i like how i went to the vent/listen chat thing to vent to someone and they just disconnected when i vented and that made me feel like shit

    • I’m so sorry that happened to you @caramel4, please know there are many more kinder and compassionate people on BT who are willing to help and support you, I’ll always be here for you too Mel, feel free to inbox me anytime if you ever need to talk about anything, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Hey Mel, that happened with me too as well. But platforms like this makes me feel that I am not alone. Nor are you. You can talk to me anytime you feel like, inbox me or anyone you know. We are here for you

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    Mel posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    I feel like i shouldnt vent anymore. This may be my last post for a while. I just feel like i should keep everything in me.

    • Your choices are yours to make, but I would strongly advise venting at least when it really starts to bother you. I think many of us have had a habit of bottling up emotions and problems, but I don’t think it has worked out for any of us. At least consider that.

    • Please don’t bottle up your thoughts, feelings and emotions @caramel4, do open up to people you can trust Mel and talk about what is on your mind, we all support, love and care about you on BT, we all want the best for you Mel, I’ll always be here for you too Mel, feel free to inbox me anytime if you ever need to chat or vent, stay strong, you…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    i keep getting a gut feeling, or whatever it’s called. i just feel like something bad is going to happen or i’m being talked about. i don’t know why i keep getting this feeling but i’m scared because most of the time im right

    • Please don’t think badly @caramel4, I’m sure nothing bad will happen to you Mel, stay positive and know so many happy, bright and special moments are ahead for you, everything will be OK Mel, smile brightly and be as upbeat as you can, things will work out for you Mel, keep going forward and never give up, you can do it Mel, inbox me anytime if…[Read more]

    • I hope nothing bad will happen and I hope its just anxiety. Keep us updated, we are here for you ♥

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    Mel posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    i feel so clingy. i overreact about everything, even tiny things or nothing at all.

    • We all deserve to feel loved, supported and cared for @caramel4, you do too Mel, there is nothing wrong with being sensitive, it shows that you are a insightful person with a loving soul and compassionate heart, remember to always focus on the things that make you feel happy Mel, embrace every part of yourself and never apologise for being the…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    i’ve been vomitting a lot recently and i think it’s because of my panic attacks. whenever i get nervous and stuff i get nauseous, and then i vomit.

    • Please try to relax and calm your mind @caramel4, focus on positive things that make you feel at ease Mel, don’t let your worries and struggles make you nervous and upset, I want to see you feeling happy and well, try to find good techniques to help you slow down so you feel rested Mel, everything will be OK Mel, try to stay as upbeat as you can…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 2 months, 4 weeks ago

    i feel like an asshole. i dont know what got into me. i blocked this friend of mine and they didn’t do anything wrong. they don’t deserve this. i’m just an asshole. i really tried, but i guess i was a plain rude person this whole time. i feel like my bff started to not trust or like me anymore. i fucking ruined everything i dont deserve anything.

    • You must have had a good reason to block this person @caramel4, maybe they said something that upset you Mel, but I would try to talk to them calmly and openly, see if you can resolve any issues and try to patch things up, you are a wonderful person and a compassionate friend Mel, please be kind to yourself and know everything will be OK, smile…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 2 months, 4 weeks ago

    So last night, I cut off someone from my life. Just blocked them on Insta with my bff and we ran away from him. I feel so evil and wrong for doing that. I don’t know why. I may have snapped because he was triggering me a lot and before he would destroy my bff’s confidence and make her upset. But, i’m just worried because he was so clingy to me…[Read more]

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    • @caramel4

      This year will mark four years since I did this same exact thing to someone. Someone I once loved very dearly, someone I had planned to drop everything for just to spend the rest of my life with. Even though this someone destroyed every aspect of my life, whether it be how to socialize, how to be my own person, how to be in stable…[Read more]

    • Do cut toxic people out of your life @caramel4, this person should really try to find the right help and support so they can lead a happier and more positive life, they have no right making you or your friend upset, anyone who uses the threat of suicide to keep you in a relationship with them is being emotionally abusive and manipulative, don’t…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 months ago

    I’m going to be going to therapy soon!

    • Oli replied 3 months ago

      I’m sure your therapy sessions will truly help you @caramel4, do use them to open up Mel, express your thoughts, feelings and emotions in a way that truly benefits you, please remember the BT community will always be here for you too Mel, stay upbeat, keep going forward and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 months ago

    Sorry if I haven’t been active a lot. I’ve been stressing out about some things. How are all of you?

    • Oli replied 3 months ago

      I don’t want to see you feeling stressed @caramel4, surround yourself with happiness, positivity and good things Mel, everything will be OK, hold your head up high and focus on making yourself feel wonderful, you can do it Mel, I’m surviving Mel, just taking one day at a time, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay…[Read more]

    • @caramel4

      Never apologize for being inactive! That’s what’s great about this site. We’re here when you need us to be. You can come every day or you can come when you need. No obligations either way. :)

      I am ok. I hope the things that you’re stressing out about resolve themselves soon enough.

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    i feel so lonely.

    • Please don’t feel lonely @caramel4, I know how you feel Mel, I get like this a lot too, we all deserve to be surrounded by happiness, by good things and kind people, you do too Mel, try to stay upbeat and surround yourself with all the things that bring you hope, joy and brightness, hold your head up high and know you will make it through this,…[Read more]

    • me too

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    I feel like shit. I just want to cry in bed all day.

    • I don’t want to see you upset or sad @caramel4, surround yourself with love and happiness, make each day incredible and always smile brightly Mel, you are such a fantastic person who deserves all the best out of life, hold your head up high and always shine Mel, remember you are destined to do great things and make all your dreams come true,…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    i want to break and destroy something. i feel like shit and stuff that has been happening has been fueling my hunger to die. i dont want to be in pain everyday.

    • Please don’t let your struggles get you down @caramel4, you are such a wonderful, lovely and special person who truly deserves all the happiness that life has to offer, do get your thoughts, feelings and emotions out in a way that truly benefits you, hold your head up high and know you are a survivor who will overcome all the dark moments,…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    i feel clingy.
    everytime my friends ignore or leave me i get so worried and spam them with text messages which probably annoys them. i always text them and want to talk to them BUT whenever they ignore me or something small i panic and start getting upset.

    • We all deserve loving, compassionate and kind friends around us, you do too @caramel4, your friends really should talk to you, be there for you and not ignore you, surround yourself with good people Mel who will always stick by you, please know the BT community will always care about you and so will I, please don’t be upset, you are so…[Read more]

    • @caramel14 – LITERALLY SAME. Literally. Are you, like, my twin, separated at birth?

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    that feeling when u’ve been in love with someone for over a year but they already have someone and then u feel like shit

    Mood : Angry
    • Please don’t feel angry @caramel4, true love and happiness will come your way Mel, maybe this person will come to love you in the same way, but please don’t give up on meeting someone special, one day you will find your knight in shining armour Mel, remember to stay positive and focus on good things in your life, surround yourself with happiness…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    I found a few ways to calm some of my panic attacks down. Music helps a lot with them.

    • It’s great to see you using music to calm yourself and make yourself feel relaxed @caramel4, keep listening to music that truly helps you and makes you feel at ease Mel, hope you are OK Mel, always be the fantastic person that you are, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Yes, it does. If you are super panicked, try to recite the lyrics – that will help distract and calm down too

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    how do i stopapanicatakack

    • @caramel4 try to see what triggered the panic attack. Take deep breaths, small sips of water, get fresh air

    • I agree with @marikofujimoto, do relax and focus on things that make you calm and put your mind at ease @caramel4, take deep breathes and stay upbeat, surround yourself with brightness and things that put a wonderful smile on your face, you will be OK, hold your head up high and go forward with a sense of confidence and optimism, remember to…[Read more]

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    Mel posted an update 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’ve finally figured out what the awful feeling in my chest is. I think it’s anxiety chest pain.

    • I get that, it could very much be that. I’m sorry you are experiencing that, whenever you feel it, try to find distractions that you can surround yourself with and look for ways to calm any potential anxiety. Chest-related things could be various non-serious things, try to see when it occurs and for how long.

    • Please don’t let anxiety pain get you down @caramel4, I agree with @invincible, try to find positive distractions and find ways to calm your mind so you feel at ease Mel, hold your head up high, relax and keep going, you will make it through this because you are so strong and amazing Mel, everything will be OK, please know you are a survivor,…[Read more]

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