Please don’t think like that @caramel4, you are such a wonderful, lovely and awesome person who deserves a life that is truly happy, positive and upbeat, please don’t let darkness break you, things will get better and everything will be OK, remember to surround yourself with hope and make each day bright and fantastic, hold your head up high, keep going forward with optimism and never give up, you can do it, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)