Please don’t kill yourself @caramel4, you are such a wonderful, lovely and special person who deserves all the happiness in the world, so many people care about you and want the best for you, things will be OK and everything will work out, stay positive and focus on getting yourself to a good place mentally, emotionally and physically, you will make it through this, keep fighting and never give up, you can do it, there is always hope at the end of the tunnel, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone (hugs)