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    Hayden posted an update 10 months ago

    I had to say goodbye to my best friend today. Our dog who has been in congestive heart failure was euthanized in the comfort of his home today. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make and although I keep feeling the waves of guilt and regret, I know that it was time. He left this earth peacefully, and I am left distraught at the…[Read more]

    Mood : Depressed
    • I’m so sorry for your loss @devilndisguise, do remember all the happy moments you were able to spend with your much loved pet, my awesome friend Hayden, all the times you played together, went on walks together and spent time cuddling with each other, focus on all the good times you had with him Hayden, be strong buddy, you will make it through…[Read more]

    • I’m so sorry for your loss, truly. I know what it’s like, especially with a pet who was your legit best friend and savior on so many levels. It’s so hard to be a caring pet owner because we have to let them go much sooner than we wish. Having a heart sucks sometimes, but I know there’s peace of mind knowing he’s at peace, not suffering, and…[Read more]

    • Such a loss is heartbreaking, I’m really sorry Hayden. I can’t imagine the pain you are going through. Know that he lived his best life by your side, being truly loved and cared. And also as important, you were by his side giving him comfort when he needed you most. I know there’s very little than I can say to ease your pain, but if you need…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Oli posted an update My life holds absolutely no meaning and no purpose, I’m 32, no friends, no social life, no romantic relationship, no goals, hopes, dreams or aspirations, no hobbies or interests, nothing in my […] View

    @Oliver – Your life holds no meaning? Oh, Oli! I don’t know much about what’s going on outside of here in your personal life, but I think I can speak for everyone when I say that we see none of these faults in you.

    Your life has so much meaning to it. You have dedicated at LEAST a decade of your life logging on here and offering your kind,…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update I had such a happy weekend with my boyfriend. I can’t understand why coming from both ends comes drama and distress which just causes sadness and anger and pain when we are apart during […] View

    Hopefully soon comes quickly for you guys! Good luck with your classes in the meantime.

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    Hayden posted an update 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    Making an effort to be more active here. I will try to check in periodically. Although there aren’t many people around nowadays, I’m glad to see the spam isn’t around like it was years ago.

    Work is closed due to the holiday, so I’ve been relaxing with the cat and doing some writing. Yup, still writing after all this time! Nothing published…[Read more]

    Mood : Peaceful
    • Great to see you feeling peaceful and keeping yourself busy @devilndisguise, it’s sad to see the spam here on BT and how quiet this place has become, but hopefully one day, this site will return to being active and filled with kind people helping each other, I’m sure you will write something wonderful, inspiring and insightful, my awesome buddy…[Read more]

    • It’s so nice to have you back Hayden! As you said, there’s no more spam nowasays, thanks to the site moderators. Glad to hear that you can enjoy some time off work doing things that make you happy! Hoping that you are having a great day too Hayden :)

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Hayden posted an update There have been some positives, though!My identity is something that I’ve always struggled with. I consider myself gender-fluid nowadays. Any and all pronouns welcome. I’m more […] View

    Thank you so much, guys! <3

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update For somebody I thought was my saviour — you sure make me do a whole lot of labourhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvU4xWsN7-A&vl=en View

    Such a well-written song.

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Angel posted an update It looks like the tagging function is gone now?Well, I was just popping my head in here to check on things and wanted to say thank you to all of the people who have offered me […] View

    I know I’m over 2 years late to the party here, but in case you log back in at any point, I wanted to acknowledge your post and thank you for the mention. <3 Seeing all of these familiar names brings a certain nostalgia, for sure. I miss all of my people here at BT!

    I hope you're doing well wherever you are, Angel. I think about everyone…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    There have been some positives, though!

    My identity is something that I’ve always struggled with. I consider myself gender-fluid nowadays. Any and all pronouns welcome. I’m more comfortable with myself and have found a style that works for me depending on how I’m feeling any given day.

    I’m also working my dream job. I’m not certified yet,…[Read more]

    • It’s good to see you are in a more comfortable and happier place mentally, emotionally and physically @devilndisguise, always be kind to yourself and focus on making each day as bright as possible, my awesome friend Hayden, be proud of who you are Hayden and keep smiling, it’s so sweet to see that you are engaged to your fiancée/wife, hope your…[Read more]

    • I am so proud of your growth. Oh my word and CONGRATS on your engagement!!! WHOOO

    • Thank you so much, guys! <3

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    Hayden posted an update 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    It’s been nearly 3 years, guys! Holy hell!

    My last post hit me like a wall of bricks when I went to see what I’d last vented about. My father had been caught cheating on my mother. That was a year of utter HELL.

    Some life updates. My father, who I had a pretty strained relationship with, passed away almost 2 years ago due to a massive stroke.…[Read more]

    • It’s great to see you back on BT, my awesome friend @devilndisguise, I’m so sorry about the various losses that have happened in the past few years to you Hayden, even if you didn’t have a good relationship with some of your family members, try to remember all the good and happy moments you spent with them if you can, I do hope you are in a more…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 3 years, 6 months ago

    My father has been cheating on my mom. He admitted to it yesterday. The day before, she caught him texting a woman. He denied it, but she saw it…

    It isn’t just one. It’s several. He “doesn’t know what he wants”, but continues to allow her to cook for him and do his laundry. He’s threatening to throw us all out. Threatened to “throw out”…[Read more]

    Mood : Anxious
    • I’m so sorry that is happening to you and your family @devilndisguise, your father has no right to do that to you or your mother, my awesome friend Hayden, he should try his best to make things work with your mother so you can remain a loving family, he shouldn’t be aggressive towards your dog, that’s not good at all Hayden, I would try to come…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 2 months ago

    It’s been awhile, but I wanted to check in. Doesn’t seem that much has changed around here, which comes as a major disappointment, but not necessarily a shock.

    Anyway, I think I need to vent. It doesn’t really matter if anyone sees this or even reads it, I just need an outlet. BT has always been there for me, above all else and through all of…[Read more]

    Mood : Depressed
    • Please don’t harm or kill yourself @devilndisguise, you are so lovely, amazing, incredible and special to me and the entire BT community Hayden, so many people care about and love you Hayden, you are a much valued and appreciated member of BT Hayden, things will get better for you, my brave and courageous friend Hayden, don’t let the dark…[Read more]

    • don’t ‘hope’ for it. make it happen. of course it’s a hell of a journey so i’m by no means downplaying the difficulty of it but quite simply – figure out where you are in life. your limitations, your strengths, etc. then figure out where you want to be. make a plan to go from where you are to where you want to be and follow it consistently.…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 6 months ago

    In reply to: Flameaura posted an update Hey all, any tips for preventing/treating a sore throat? View

    @flameaura

    I’ve heard honey and tea does wonders. :) Gargling a salt water solution can also help.

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 6 months ago

    In reply to: MidnightSarrow posted an update So i pissed my bf off last night, mad him feel worthless again and he still cares about me? I think he should block me and move on tbh, he won’t get badly hurt.Whyyyyyy is my […] View

    @midnightsarrow

    It’s normal to hurt each other in a relationship every once in awhile– mistakes are made, things happen. Minor pain is forgivable and forgettable.

    But the entire situation sounds rather toxic to me. Lack of communication especially? Communicating your problems and the relationship’s issues should be top priority. Without…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 6 months ago

    Hi, all.

    Remember to love yourself today.

    • Thank you for always being the kind, compassionate and sweet person that you are @devilndisguise, my awesome friend Hayden, keep inspiring this community and know you are truly lovely Hayden, feel free to inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent Hayden, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update did a walk with my grandmother for Alzheimer’s to end it. Walked 3 miles and had a good time. We wore purple and there were lots of booths with fun things and items to get before/after the […] View

    Those walks are very encouraging as well as heartwarming. I’ve done a few for multiple sclerosis (my mother has it, my sister has it, and a couple of people from my mom’s side of the family has it), and those days were some of the best. Haven’t done any walks in awhile, but walking for a cause brings a good feeling.

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    Hayden posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    I wish it wasn’t such a common occurrence for me to want to just give up.

    Mood : Depressed
    • I don’t want to see you feeling sad and depressed @devilndisguise, you are such a kind, lovely, sweet and compassionate friend to me, my awesome buddy Hayden, I want to see you truly smiling, happy and making each day as bright as you can, you will overcome all of life’s hurdles Hayden and everything will be OK, remember to hold your head up…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Mystic Unicorn posted an update Hey everyone. Wow. It has been a long time since I’ve been here. Everything is going pretty well. I have figured out my sexuality. I have an amazing soon-to-be girlfriend right now […] View

    @mystic-unicorn

    That’s great to hear. :) I’m very happy for you. I wish the best for you and your new girlfriend, and hope things continue to work in your favor.

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Zero posted an update Hey, guys, I haven’t been around much on here fora while but i’m back now. I recently came to terms with a few things such as my gender identity and my sexuality. I’m actually doing pretty […] View

    @zerohappythoughts

    It’s a rather freeing feeling when you finally are able to come to term with those things. I barely did so just a couple years ago.

    Being able to freely express yourself, though, that can be a different story. I can only hope you’re able to do so comfortably.

    I’m glad to hear that you’re doing better now, at least.…[Read more]

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Hayden posted an update What the … *fuck* … is happening here? This place is just disgusting now. I’m so disappointed. Once a beautiful community, now a target for perverts and trolls who take advantage of those […] View

    @oliver

    Completely agree, Oli. I’d love to see you become an admin. I’ve been rooting for that to happen since I joined over 4 years ago!
    I guess we just have to keep hoping, somehow. I wish the owner still cared about this place, or another place like this would come around.

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    Hayden posted a new activity comment 4 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: bumbletuna72 posted an update Megan, the pedophile, has been reported to blah. keep an eye out for Megan. anyone know how these conversations can be reported to local authorities? i don’t trust blah to do anything. View

    That’s just so disgusting. I’m not sure if there is a way, you’d probably have to reach out to them yourselves. But whether or not they choose to investigate would be up in the air. Given that it’s complete anonymity, I don’t know if they could track those people.

    The moderation around here used to be at last halfway decent, but this is a…[Read more]

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