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    Cecelia posted an update 5 hours, 35 minutes ago

    Just need now & always before some validation and acknowledgement from the people in my life, especially my family. Even in times of stress I am not allowed to feel. My depression, my fatigue, my anxiety, my trauma, my self-harmful methods I’ve done (problem – shopping, binging and purging, suicidal ideations) are all overlooked, disregarded and…[Read more]

    • Your family should support, love and care about you @invincible, they should acknowledge and support you so you can overcome all the struggles and hurdles that life throws at you sweetie, there is absolutely nothing wrong with having feelings and emotions, like you said beautiful angel Cecelia, it shows you are human, please remember you do matter…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 1 day ago

    this really has not been a good week lol: a lot of money is missing from my bank account, my pandemic money is not showing up in my account, a family member tested pos for covid and if they have it I probably have it because I am showing some symptoms, we have to move and pack everything up in 2 weeks… oy vey!!!! I am going to try and stay…[Read more]

    • Please look after yourself @invincible, hopefully you will receive your money soon, I would isolate if you start to have COVID symptoms, but do go to the hospital if things become really difficult, but no matter what happens, you will make it through this and come out stronger, do stay positive and know everything will be OK beautiful angel…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 weeks, 1 day ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update probably have covid – but honestly, it’s the way i’ve been treated by family and my friend that hurts way more than my body right now. View

    thakn you so much oli i will

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 2 days ago

    probably have covid – but honestly, it’s the way i’ve been treated by family and my friend that hurts way more than my body right now.

    • Please go to the emergency room as soon as you can if you start to feel any symptoms or if your breathing starts to become difficult @invincible, remember to isolate as well, I don’t want to see you feeling unwell with the virus, do wear a mask as well sweetie, do take care of yourself beautiful angel Cecelia, I want to see you feeling healthy…[Read more]

    • thakn you so much oli i will

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 3 days ago

    I still cannot believe when my family member accused me of having agoraphobia and social anxiety. I literally like going outside, to the stores, and I am a friendly person and make small conversation much more than she does lol. HOw does that equal agoraphobia or social anxiety?? Just because I am an introvert she accuses me of that lol. LIke,…[Read more]

    • Your family members really shouldn’t be doing that to you @invincible, they have no right to diagnose you with anything, you deserve to be treated with love, compassion, care, respect and dignity beautiful angel Cecelia, remember to always be kind to yourself and love every part of yourself sweetie, surround yourself with love and always be the…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    my money is not showing up for weeks now, i’m seriously pissed the fuck off. i need it meanwhile lowlifes get it and minors get it, what the fuck!? if even the fucking government screws me over just like family, friends and school always have, i’m gonna fucking lose it.

    • Hope your money gets to you soon @invincible, if nothing happens or your money doesn’t come, I would contact your local welfare office and speak with them beautiful angel Cecelia, you need that money so you can support yourself during these difficult times sweetie, everything will be OK Cecelia, try to be upbeat and keep going lovely Cecelia,…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    i just feel like i am nowhere, and i am no one.

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      Please don’t feel like that @invincible, you will do amazing things in life and make all your dreams come true beautiful angel Cecelia, remember to smile brightly sweetie and always be kind to yourself, you are a fantastic, wonderful and special person who deserves all the happiness in the world Cecelia, hold your head up high and keep going…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    I need to redirect my fears into not distancing myself from him & my happiness towards him. I need to redirect my stress into not allowing fear to develop and consume me, like it has been. I need to write, read, think about him in positive manners, listen to music, clean, and work.

    • Don’t let your fears break you @invincible, stay focused on all the things that bring you happiness, hope and positivity beautiful angel Cecelia, do all the activities that make you feel good daily and surround yourself with compassionate people, remember you are truly incredible and wonderful Cecelia, everything will be OK sweetie and things will…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months ago

    I am willing to drop my entire self to just feel happy. I will merge into another and completely disappear. Too dependent. I need to learn how to not do that to the point it upsets me and can sabotoge my own life and my own independent successes. If they have successes, ambitions and their own sense selflf apart from ME… then I need to learn…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      Always be proud of who you are @invincible, do love and embrace every part of yourself beautiful angel Cecelia, be kind to yourself sweetie because you do matter and you are worth it, you are so amazing and incredible in every way Cecelia, hold your head up high Cecelia and don’t let doubt, insecurities and negativity break you, stay positive and…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 months ago

    In reply to: Oli posted an update Words to accurately describe me: Pathetic, reclusive, failure, sad, depressed, lost, lonely, stupid, hopeless, alone :( View

    No oli, I am sorry but this is just not true. You are inspiring, helpful, successful, smart, and so incredibly kind and deserving of all things good.

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months ago

    Should I try to get help from a therapist or counselor or just let the damage do it’s thing and then look back on it from a dramatic, cinematic viewpoint?

    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      Do talk to a counselor or therapist @invincible, I’m sure talking to someone and being able to unburden yourself will be beneficial for you beautiful Cecelia, I want to see you feeling happy and positive sweetie, don’t let all the trauma beat you Cecelia, remember you are so brave, courageous and amazing sweetheart, the BT community will always be…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months ago

    I know I have said this a lot, but I am actually I need to get out of here. It’s too toxic. I will literally just die if I can’t leave. I have had enough. I have developed respect for me enough to realize this place is BAD. I just .. I need money and a place to go! I can’t take it here anymore. I absolutely cannot. How can I get out of here…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      I don’t want to see you feeling unsafe and stuck in a toxic environment @invincible, please try to leave when you can sweetie and find a place of safety, comfort and happiness that will put you at ease and make you smile beautiful Cecelia, you will make it through this sweetheart and please know the BT community will be here for you every step of…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    sleeping. all the time. so depressed. the only time during the day I wana be awake is to talk to my best friend for several hours @ night. that is it, that is my life. i am grateful for them and my cat who sleeps with me all day and all night. but wtf! i hope this ends. i have things to do, I cannot have such bad fatigue!

    • I don’t want to see you struggling @invincible, you are such a beautiful, lovely and incredible angel who deserves happiness in her life wonderful Cecelia, don’t let depression break you down sweetheart, stay focused on all the things that bring you hope, purpose and optimism Cecelia, it’s nice that your best friend is there to comfort and…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    In reply to: KinkyMomo posted an update Waiting for quarantine to end so i can see a doctor about the baby bump. View

    Go as soon as you can, if you are going to go during this pandemic, please wear a mask and gloves in public! ♥

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Spending my birthday relaxing and feeling gratitude.

    • Happy Birthday to a truly lovely, incredible, special and beautiful angel @invincible, it’s great to see that you are spending your birthday feeling wonderful Cecelia, this community is so thankful for having you as a member sweetheart, you have done so much for me and all of us here on BT sweetie, please know I will always be here for you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    In reply to: jporwave posted an update history repeats itself, it really doesi remember what my ex said.. she told me to stop complimenting her and saying i loved her all the time because it ’cheapened’ the phrase i meant it […] View

    Listen hun, different people have their own love languages. It is possible these two people you were with are too insecure or just didn’t click with your form of affection. It’s fine. It has happened with me, where I was on both ends! This is not the end and someone someday will really appreciate and reciprocate the feelings and actions you take in love.

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update worst thing right now: in debt due to implusive buying and hustling to try and make the money up.best thing right now: in love :’)msg me if you ever need to talk! I am still here ♥ View

    your messages really inspire me and help me so much you are such a gem in my life and here in everyone’s lives <3

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    In reply to: KinkyMomo posted an update The bump is definitely showing now… View

    Here for you hun. You can confide in me all you want, never hesitate to message me. You are strong and worthy of love.

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Life is just so hard right now, but I am so grateful for: my new cat (aka my soulmate daughter i love her so much), my best friend, blahtherapy & oli.

    my bday is coming up, hopefully I can have a shift of mood for then. Just gonna relax, do some art & have some yummy food.

    • Please don’t let the struggles of life break you @invincible, stay positive beautiful angel Cecelia and always surround yourself with the things that bring you happiness and hope, it’s so nice to see that you have a cute new animal in your life sweetie, do play with and create awesome memories with your special cat Cecelia, it’s good that your…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    In reply to: jporwave posted an update still here not even sure ill ever have the guts to try…was gonna try to just starve myself ha ha but didnt even make the full 24 hours before it hurt too much maybe being stuck in this […] View

    If you need to talk, I am here hun

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