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    Cecelia posted an update 4 days, 6 hours ago

    I joined Blah when I was 15. On Sunday I turned 25. Wild.

    • Hope you had a wonderful birthday @invincible, remember to think of how far you have come beautiful angel Cecelia and know that you will make all your dreams, goals and aspirations come true Cecelia, I’m sure that in all the time you have been on BT that this community has helped to make you feel happier, remember so many people care about you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month ago

    Up and down. With the draining, exhausted anxiety comes some exciting anxiety (good) and hope.

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Panic attacks every night this week. Now utter anxiety. Car trouble and feeling emotionally neglected.

    • Please try to find ways to put yourself at ease, relax and calm yourself mentally, emotionally and physically @invincible, don’t let anxiety break you down sweetie, take deep breathes, listen to the sounds of calmness and focus on putting yourself in a state of peace, happiness and positivity beautiful Cecelia, I hope you manage to get your car…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update My toxic boss got fired! So happy and relieved beyond belief! There is still toxicity deep within the company, so I will still be looking to leave – but I can do so without feeling like […] View

    thanks so much Oli ♥ SO much love to you!!

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    Now that I have some creative and productive blocks opening up, and work is going OK rather than horridly — I am contemplating some aspects in my relationship. I could put my self down as everyone does as being ”overdramatic” or ”overthinking” — but I deserve to be heard and my concerns and questions legitimatized and taken seriously.

    • You will overcome all the blocks and everything will work out amazingly for you @invincible, remember to stay positive and know you will make fantastic things happen beautiful angel Cecelia, keep working as hard as you can in your job but know your happiness and whether you are comfortable in the job should always come first sweetie, I would talk…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 1 month, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Oli posted an update I’m so sad, things never work out for me, they always end up going badly no matter how hard I try. :( View

    I’m so sorry Oli, please don’t let a few bumps in the road discourage you from living up to your full potential. Unfortunately life sucks a lot – but you have endless support from us here – we all genuinely care about you and know that you will succeed in life and things will look up for you. Have the faith we all have in you – but it’s OK to…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    My toxic boss got fired! So happy and relieved beyond belief! There is still toxicity deep within the company, so I will still be looking to leave – but I can do so without feeling like I’m gonna be sick everyday before & after work.

    • That’s good to hear, you should be able to go to work feeling positive and ready to do your job to the best of your ability @invincible, I would find a job in a company where the culture is caring and where you feel truly happy and comfortable beautiful Cecelia, don’t let your former toxic boss sour you on finding a great job sweetie, I’m sure…[Read more]

    • thanks so much Oli ♥ SO much love to you!!

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    overwhelmed and not happy right now. :/

    • I don’t want to see you feeling overwhelmed and unhappy @invincible, you are such a special, lovely and beautiful angel who deserves true happiness, positivity and brightness in your life sweetie, what’s on your mind Cecelia?, don’t let the sad and difficult times get you down sweetheart, focus on all the things in life that make you smile and…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    HOW can someone expect resepct when they never give it to me. I’ve been set up to fail so of course I’m gonna do all I can to get a taste of individuality and respectable freedom. Jesus. It’s overwhelming though and I panic and just get overwhelmingly depressed and just sleep. Hopefully this is the hard part before the success comes in.

    • They should respect, support and always be there to help you @invincible, anyone who disrespects you or stands in the way of your happiness, goals and dreams doesn’t deserve someone as amazing as you in their lives beautiful Cecelia, remember to be independent, be your own person sweetie, focus on your bright future that lies ahead and don’t let…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Oh great now I am mega in the red for the week and it’s only monday heh.

    • Hope you are able to manage and make it through the week @invincible, don’t be afraid to reach out for support, help and assistance beautiful Cecelia, is there anyone or any organisations you can reach out to in your area sweetie?, try to stay positive, hold your head up high and keep going forward with optimism Cecelia, I wish I could help you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    I feel utterly distressed and overwhelmed… I cannot take it anymore where I am treated so insignificantly and like an incapable child by my parent. And I am so over their lack of communication. It makes me sick & feel like shit. Why am I not allowed to be a human? Their twisted view of keeping me dependent, dumb & child-like in their systematic…[Read more]

    • You deserve so much better @invincible, your parents should treat you with love and always support you in what you want to do in life, I would talk to them openly and honestly sweetie, let them know how you feel, because you do deserve independence and to live a fulfilling life that is happy and where you can make your own choices and decisions…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    Panic attack and annoyance

    • Focus on putting your mind at ease, relax and find positive ways to calm yourself @invincible, don’t let anxiety break you down sweetie, I want to see you feeling wonderful physically, mentally and emotionally beautiful angel Cecelia, take deep breathes, meditate, listen to calm sounds or music, everything will be OK sweetie, hold your head up…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 month, 4 weeks ago

    How can work go from being great to being an absolute hell… it’s getting worse and worse each day, which is hard to believe but I am living it! LOOKINg for a job but feeling pressure from both my parent at home and my boyfriend at his place is getting to me..

    • I know how you feel, my job is stressful as I work for the emergency services in the UK but I try to cope with it as best I can @invincible, you deserve to be in a job that makes you feel positive and gives you a sense of fulfilment, remember that your happiness should always come first sweetie, I would try to find a job or career for yourself…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 1 month, 4 weeks ago

    In reply to: Fading Echo posted an update Miss you guys. Logging into this site for the first time in a while. Hope everyone is okay.I’m in an institution now. As per usual, we aren’t treated as human beings, but that’s no […] View

    Hey Fading Echo! I miss you! I hope you’re alright doing the best you can in there… I’m hoping hard that one day we can live to see the transformation of institutions to be somewhat humane and helpful… :( I’m here for you, don’t hesitate to get in contact.

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    Cecelia posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    I’m not uncomfortable, but I feel so uncomfortable

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pG2VPXPITg

    • Please don’t feel uncomfortable @invincible, remember to stay positive, smile brightly and always be kind to yourself beautiful angel Cecelia, you deserve to feel comfortable, upbeat and wonderful sweetie, you will make it through the difficult moments and come out stronger as you are a brave survivor sweetheart, keep going forward with…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update A day for staying busy and blasting music … woke up exhausted and snapped at by my toxic boss as well as my sick bf over the phone so… :-) thank god i have reasons to stay busy otherwise i’d […] View

    add my period on top of it… starting lol.

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    Cecelia posted an update 3 months, 3 weeks ago

    A day for staying busy and blasting music … woke up exhausted and snapped at by my toxic boss as well as my sick bf over the phone so… :-) thank god i have reasons to stay busy otherwise i’d break down just about now.

    • add my period on top of it… starting lol.

    • Please take care of yourself @invincible, remember to stay positive and surround yourself with happiness, hope and empathy beautiful angel Cecelia, your boss really should treat you with respect and not be toxic, as I’m sure you are a great employee who works hard, I would talk to your boyfriend about any issues in the relationship, always keep…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 4 months ago

    In reply to: Marta posted an update Hello everybody! I just want to wish y’all a fantastic start of the week. Remember to stay hydrated, to eat something nutritious, to rest your body and mind, to do some activity that brings […] View

    thank you for this reminder, I need to really put this as a priority, you’re such a positive influence on this site. I appreciate you and Oli beyond belief! ♥

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    Cecelia posted an update 4 months ago

    Beyond stressed. I feel both my parent and partner tugging at me and I am losing myself in the process.. it’s very triggering because it’s reminiscent of my childhood. Emotionally gaslit by my parent and her having control over everything and i just feel paralyzed from the trauma and loss of control. All the pressure and stress from my intense…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 4 months ago

      Your parents and your partner should treat you with love and always be there to support you @invincible, you are such a lovely, wonderful and amazing angel who deserves happiness in your life sweetheart, don’t let them gaslight or bully you Cecelia, you have been through so much sweetie and come out as a brave, strong survivor Cecelia, please…[Read more]

    • That last line just hit right in the spot… You are not a priority to yourself. It did hit a soft spot to me too, because I’m the same way. It’s very difficult to change that if it’s something you’ve been doing for a long time. Even so, you have to treat yourself with the same kindness and love that you would treat a loved one. This won’t…[Read more]

    • I view life as a mathematical consequence game, and sometimes one problem leads to another, and you may feel that everything wrong had to happen simultaneously. My solution to this was practising discipline about how I react to situations and turn those hardships into lessons to be learned or challenges to be won.

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    Cecelia posted a new activity comment 4 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update My parent is gatekeeping the $$$ and info from my accident and new car opportunities which is just pushing me even more to get out and be independent, I just need to get my spending and […] View

    thank you so much Oli, I need to just remember to and apply budgeting to my life, especially since I have to look after myself first, my cat, and now my life with my new love who i think is the one. it’s big responsibilites but i want it more than anything.

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