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    mariko posted an update 4 hours, 59 minutes ago

    Also I just realised the perfect job for myself until june (when I apply for uni again): a job in a bookstore! I spent all my life in bookstores and around books! All I need to learn is how to work with the money cash machine. Right now I’m working on my curriculum and I’m going to also make a letter to promote myself. Guys I’m determinated to…[Read more]

    • Do apply for the job @marikofujimoto, I’m sure you will fit in amazingly working at a bookstore, follow your dreams and pursue your passions sweetie, I wish you all the best Mariko :) <3 (hugs)

    • I love bookstores and even considered working at one since I have always been an avid reader – I’m not reading much anymore tho because I’ve been busy lately with work/uni). I really hope you can get this job and do what you love. Good luck! By the way, do you have any book you love worth sharing? xx

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    mariko posted an update 5 hours, 1 minute ago

    However I decided to pull myself up! Not going down! My anxiety is not going to define me!
    Is why I signed in my yoga center for an experimental class in meditation this saturday. If I can learn to meditate at least for an hour , I for sure will improve

    • Stay positive and don’t let anything get you down @marikofujimoto, do relax and remember you are a bright, beautiful and special angel of the Blah community, believe in yourself and keep going forward sweetie, you can do it Mariko, I’m always here for you :) <3 (hugs)

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    mariko posted an update 5 hours, 1 minute ago

    So last night I had a massive panick attack due to the pression I have.

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    laylab95 posted an update 14 hours, 40 minutes ago

    Today was not so good. I asked my driver instructor for night time driving since I been told that if you can do that you can drive at any time. He flatly said no and said he will continue to give me the rest of my 4 hours of time everyday at 9 a.m when it hardly be no cars in sight. I’m the one who paid for his service not the other way around.…[Read more]

    Mood : Pissed off
    • Hopefully you will get to practice night driving soon @layla95, keep learning and improving your skills Layla, don’t let your grandmother be horrible to you sweetie, I want to see you being treated with kindness and love by those closest to you, your mother really should stand up for you and defend you, you deserve so much better hun, remember…[Read more]

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    mariko posted an update 17 hours, 14 minutes ago

    I have so much pressure I think I’ll go insane.
    Doesn’t help that my monday class is going to be suspended and I’m only going to have one class at wednesday. Let’s just say I’ve been taking an anxiety pill everyday.

    Mood : Crushed
    • Try to relax and take deep breathes @marikofujimoto, focus on making each day bright and happy Mariko, I want to see you feeling calm and at ease with yourself sweetie, you will be OK hun, take care Mariko and keep going, I’m always here if you need to chat, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • That sucks. I know how you been enjoying that class but please try to relax. You’re more than welcomed to talk to me anytime @marikofujimoto

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    laylab95 posted an update 1 day, 3 hours ago

    My second hour of driving time starts shortly. I can’t wait as I’m so surprisingly good at it.

    Mood : Happy
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    laylab95 posted an update 1 day, 16 hours ago

    So I want to mention this as well about my day. Less than a hour after coming in from my first day of driving school, I finally got a letter from my appeal basically stating that my ex has 30 days from April12 of which he sign it to SEE if he wants to pay me or fight me on returning my money. Isn’t that crazy? Why after 12 days and me thinking…[Read more]

    Mood : Blank
    • Hopefully your ex will pay you back and you will get your money from him @layla95, keep fighting your corner Layla and don’t give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • Thank you @Oli

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    laylab95 posted an update 2 days ago

    Got done with my driving and it was absolutely great. My instructor told me for someone who haven’t drove in 2 years that I am great. I got some much done within one hour and we were talking the whole time which made me feel at ease. I start my 2nd hour tomorrow around 8 a.m which I can’t wait for.

    Mood : Accomplished
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    laylab95 posted an update 2 days, 2 hours ago

    I should be starting my driving school time any minute now. I will be doing an hour and go from there. I really hope I catch on quickly as I so need to so I can work on a car and gain some sense of happiness finally. Wish me luck you guys.

    Mood : Hopeful
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    mariko posted an update 2 days, 3 hours ago

    So I finally made the blog: https://animebestgirl95.wixsite.com/advice

    (ignore the name since I didn’t feel like making a new email, and they required it for the title so)

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    mariko posted an update 2 days, 5 hours ago

    So email is done and now let’s get to work to create this blog

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    mariko posted an update 2 days, 5 hours ago

    So something really bad happened yesterday and depression hit me so hard … So I imediatly broke down and decided to sleep to forget. Now I woke up and I seriously am going to make a blog. Going to put all my love and dedication to it. Will be a blog about failure, depression, anxiety but all of this talked through a REAL but also positive…[Read more]

    • @marikofujimoto I am sorry for whatever it was that caused you to break down but I hope your day is brighter today especially since you have your blog (I checked it out and it’s amazing) keep pushing forward because YOU are great.

    • Please keep fighting and never give up @marikofujimoto, do create your blog which I’m sure will inspire and help so many people, remember you are incredible, beautiful and perfect in every single way Mariko, we all love and care about you sweetie :) <3 (hugs)

    • Good luck on your blog. We react to stress in different ways. Me, I get really sleepy, tired. So I can relate going to sleep to forget. Once I realized that is how I react to stress, it has helped me better know myself, and to identify when I am stressed. It has also helped my pin point some specific stress buttons I have. These things are all…[Read more]

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    laylab95 posted an update 2 days, 19 hours ago

    So my mom told me to text the guy I was talking about the other day today for her even after I came to her that day crying saying I’m tired of just being the girl guys want to screw and use. I asked her why she couldn’t text him her own self on her phone or even better, call him and she said why couldn’t I do this for her and he likes me and…[Read more]

    Mood : Disgusted
    • Your mother has absolutely no right to treat you that way @layla95, she should love and care about you, it is so wrong that she is putting her own needs before that of her daughter, I don’t want to see you being abused or hurt by anyone, you deserve so much better sweetie, I want to see beautiful Layla surrounded by good, compassionate and kind…[Read more]

    • @layla95 You can’t deny yourself things like hope or self love only because your mum has no common sense and knows how to parent a child properly. You have to realise that now you’re an adult but alot affected you because how people treated you, incluiding your mother. So is really unfair and brutal to put yourself that low when is not your fault at all

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    mariko posted an update 3 days, 14 hours ago

    Goodnight everyone. Let’s hope for better days really. Wish you all the best, much love

    Mood : Anxious
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    mariko posted an update 3 days, 14 hours ago

    So I’m feeling sick again. I hate how fragile my health is… And my anxiety gets worst too… Also doesn’t help I need to go to a dermatologist to for once find out what I have. People tell me I have rosacea, but not sure. :( Wasn’t the best day ever.

    Mood : Anxious
    • Take care of yourself and stay healthy @marikofujimoto, I want to see you feeling fabulous emotionally, mentally and physically Mariko, remember you are beautiful and incredible inside and out sweetie, calm your mind and relax hun, I’m always here for you Mariko, feel free to inbox me anytime, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

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    laylab95 posted an update 3 days, 17 hours ago

    I woke up today crying and have been on and off all day. I wish I can say I will overcome all of my problems successfully soon but I can’t.

    Mood : Exhausted
    • Please don’t feel upset @layla95, I want to see you smiling and truly living each day to the fullest Layla, hold your head up high and know the future is filled with so much brightness for you, everything will be OK and you will make all your dreams come true Layla, believe in yourself and keep going forward sweetie, you can do it Layla, you are…[Read more]

    • Just one step at a time. Just accomplish one thing. it isn’t about everything allat once, just one thing at a time.

    • @layla95 so sorry you’re having a rough day darling , I really wish life would be easier on you. But you can get through this <3 we're all here for you

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    mariko posted an update 4 days, 13 hours ago

    Goodnight. Anxiety kept me up once again at 3 am…

    Mood : Anxious
    • Try to have a good sleep and relax @marikofujimoto, rest well sweetie and take care of yourself, I’m always here for you Mariko :) <3 (hugs)

    • You should poke anxiety in the ribs and tell it to stop snoring. When my brain is working too hard in the middle of the night I often turn to waves or rain – soundtracks, to get it distracted.

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    laylab95 posted an update 4 days, 15 hours ago

    After holding back my tears, I finally decided to let them shed. It’s funny how I use to think there was a God but now I just see some people were destined to win and some lose. Guess what side I’m on? Life and people are constantly breaking me down. I have lost all of my desires to want to do anything in life. I just don’t care anymore. I’m…[Read more]

    • I don’t want to see you feeling upset or down @layla95, you are such a special, kind and lovely angel who deserves to have a life that is filled with happiness, hope and brightness Layla, remember you are so much stronger than those who seek to break you Layla, hold your head up high and know you are a fighter and survivor, everything will work…[Read more]

    • It is true that life deals out different things to different people. For people who have a lot, they think that is normal, and they deserve it. For those without, sometimes it is accepted, other times we rail against it. I don’t think you should cast off your spirituality in either case. We just came through Easter where God Himself – the Divine…[Read more]

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    laylab95 posted an update 4 days, 17 hours ago

    So there’s this guy who my mom deals occasional business with who she just swears has a crush on me. He’s in his mid 30s and always seems sweet. I got his phone number to ask him a question for my mom and he started saying how sexy I was and that he was a freak (is that really such an accomplishment that you can put on a freaking application?) I…[Read more]

    Mood : Pissed off
    • Don’t let this guy contact you again @layla95, he has absolutely no right saying those horrible things to you Layla, you are a beautiful, strong, incredible and intelligent woman who is worthy of true love and respect, I don’t want to see you being hurt or used by others sweetie, hold your head up high and know what matters is your happiness…[Read more]

    • @layla95 you shouldn’t even need to justify yourself to him. There are great guys out there but some are disgusting who just see women as a piece of meat. You’re worthy of much more! Focous on your driving license and one day a guy who genuinly cares will show up

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