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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 2 months ago

    what I went through recently, caused me to cry for hours nonstop because it wasn’t in my control but I got treated in a way that was rude and I was humiliated and kicked out of place because of something I didn’t know how to handle. I’m someone who chooses to love instead of hate and keep my heart light. I have friends of many ages… Someone…[Read more]

    • I’m in the same boat with you on that one. I’m very reserved and it makes me a vulnerable person for people to prey on. This is why I keep one close online friend, otherwise I grew to accept that I didn’t really want more than I have.

      You don’t deserve to feel more pain, for sure. And sometimes you’re just going to need time to yourself so…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 2 months ago

      I’m so sorry that happened to you @spectrolite7, that horrible woman had no right taking advantage of you, I want to see you feeling truly happy and being around positivity, you are such a special, incredible and awesome person who deserves to feel wonderful and loved, please know that the BT community will always be here for you and so will I,…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 2 months ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update Feeling sick… I know I that I’m strong enough to keep going but I feel so sick I can hurt myself… I’m tired, feel kind of depressed and I’m tempted to hurt myself because I know that […] View

    thanks @oliver I’m trying my best… things have been tough lately, I’m scared because of how much pain I feel from the things that have been happening.. I wish that things get better. I’m doing my best to make it through this.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    Feeling sick… I know I that I’m strong enough to keep going but I feel so sick I can hurt myself… I’m tired, feel kind of depressed and I’m tempted to hurt myself because I know that I’m not ok at communicating what I feel face to face with anyone… I have way to many blocks in my mind that I can’t even move or do anything and the closest…[Read more]

    Mood : Sick
    • I want to see you feeling mentally, emotionally and physically well @spectrolite7, do take care of yourself and focus on all the things that bring you happiness, brightness and joy, remember to always be kind to yourself, hold your head up high, smile and never give up, everything will be OK and things will get better, you can do it, inbox me…[Read more]

    • thanks @oliver I’m trying my best… things have been tough lately, I’m scared because of how much pain I feel from the things that have been happening.. I wish that things get better. I’m doing my best to make it through this.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    i almost feel like nothing matters… like even if I do my best to enjoy life, it still feels like something is missing. i don’t know what to do, whether to go outside or to stay inside… whether to create something and make art or to lay down and relax… I don’t know what to do… and I don’t know how to get help… or how to be helped… i…[Read more]

    Mood : Listless
    • Please don’t feel like that @spectrolite7, you will find what is missing in your life and everything will be OK, try to go out and into the world if you can, expand your horizons and meet as many new people as you can, do talk about your feelings and emotions, get your thoughts out as much as you can, those who leave you because of your emotions…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I have my own place now but now I feel kind of disorganized or like I don’t know what to do… I’m taking driving lessons, so I’ve been watching a lot of videos about driving so that I […] View

    @gorvhanstruck I would like to take dance classes and skateboarding lesson, that would definitely take my mind of things. I think that’s just what would help me feel more grounded in the reality and not so much in my mind. I love animals, I was thinking about volunteering to socialize kittens and cats for adoption, I would like pets in my life…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I have my own place now but now I feel kind of disorganized or like I don’t know what to do… I’m taking driving lessons, so I’ve been watching a lot of videos about driving so that I […] View

    @devilindisguise thanks for your message, it helps put things in perspective and helps me relax about life and just trust and not be to hard on myself… I take life so seriously and maybe that’s what’s making it so uncomfortable… I will probably get better at being unblocked when I start just releasing the time frame to do anything and just…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I have my own place now but now I feel kind of disorganized or like I don’t know what to do… I’m taking driving lessons, so I’ve been watching a lot of videos about driving so that I […] View

    @oliver thank you for always telling me positive messages, it truly helps each one of my days be better… it helps me to feel like life is working out for me and that it will be just fine…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 5 months, 3 weeks ago

    I have my own place now but now I feel kind of disorganized or like I don’t know what to do… I’m taking driving lessons, so I’ve been watching a lot of videos about driving so that I can pass the road test. I’ve been doing my best. I kind of feel like I don’t know how to live and feel content with my life… I always feel like i have to do…[Read more]

    • You will live a truly positive, successful and happy life @spectrolite7, things will go your way and you will make all your dreams come true, stay upbeat and know so much brightness lies ahead for you, your future will be so awesome, remember to always believe in yourself and go forward with a sense of purpose and confidence, you can do it, inbox…[Read more]

    • @Spectrolite7

      I’m a writer. I understand the failing feeling of not working on something each and every day. But like anything you want to turn into a job, you need to allow yourself to take breaks and have those days off.
      It’s alright to relax and do nothing every once in awhile. You aren’t a failure because of that. And being in your early…[Read more]

    • The number one thing is simply first finding what you enjoy and take wholeheartedly to it, you may stumble upon it or already know what it is. You might seek it out or it might find you, you have not failed at life because from what it sounds like you have left the world a better place then when you got here. If you want children but think you…[Read more]

    • @oliver thank you for always telling me positive messages, it truly helps each one of my days be better… it helps me to feel like life is working out for me and that it will be just fine…

    • @devilindisguise thanks for your message, it helps put things in perspective and helps me relax about life and just trust and not be to hard on myself… I take life so seriously and maybe that’s what’s making it so uncomfortable… I will probably get better at being unblocked when I start just releasing the time frame to do anything and just…[Read more]

    • @gorvhanstruck I would like to take dance classes and skateboarding lesson, that would definitely take my mind of things. I think that’s just what would help me feel more grounded in the reality and not so much in my mind. I love animals, I was thinking about volunteering to socialize kittens and cats for adoption, I would like pets in my life…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 1 year, 1 month ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update I feel like i have to start a new life in another country because where i’m at in the moment feels like a torturous humiliating experience because i’m here doing my best to be […] View

    thanks @oliver i wish I was strong enough to make real change in my life… i’ve been doing the best i can but i really still feel like a failure… i feel like im dying from so much emotional pain… i feel like i might just waste away in my bed… i don’t know what else to do… :( i feel like i actually don’t exist…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    I feel like i have to start a new life in another country because where i’m at in the moment feels like a torturous humiliating experience because i’m here doing my best to be successful but i feel like i’m stuck waiting for something that has taken a lot of my attention and when i do try to go outside and do something, i feel like a complete…[Read more]

    • Please don’t feel bad about yourself @spectrolite7, you are such a wonderful, amazing and fabulous person who will fantastic things in life, you will make all your goals come true and you will be successful, focus on surrounding yourself with hope, light and positivity, make all your dreams a reality and know things will change for the better, be…[Read more]

    • thanks @oliver i wish I was strong enough to make real change in my life… i’ve been doing the best i can but i really still feel like a failure… i feel like im dying from so much emotional pain… i feel like i might just waste away in my bed… i don’t know what else to do… :( i feel like i actually don’t exist…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    i dont know why i feel confused… i wonder if this feeling will continue on… i hope things change and this feeling goes away.. i feel kind of scared… i feel like i failed myself or something but i know i’ve been doing the best i can in my life…i know every thing i did because i was following my heart… so should i regret my decisions or…[Read more]

    • Do what makes you truly happy in life @spectrolite7, you are such an amazing, wonderful and awesome person who will make all your dreams come true, things will be OK and everything will go your way, hold your head up high and focus on your bright future, you can do it, believe in yourself and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or…[Read more]

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 1 year, 9 months ago

    In reply to: Haze posted an update So I realize it’s been years since I’ve posted here. I don’t know if anyone cares or was worried but, I’m doing great. I have a new boyfriend and I’m doing pretty good as far as life goes. i […] View

    that’s great to hear that you’re doing well… keep on going with that positive mindset, it does get better. I know from experience and agree with this. :)

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    Spectrolite7 posted a new activity comment 1 year, 9 months ago

    In reply to: Spectrolite7 posted an update my lips hurt from biting it when I was yelling… :( hope it heals quickly… View

    thanks @oliver… it is healing and today is a great day!

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    my lips hurt from biting it when I was yelling… :( hope it heals quickly…

    • I don’t want to see you upset or sad @spectrolite7, hope your lips heal soon, stay positive, keep smiling and make each day bright and beautiful, remember you are a wonderful and special person who truly deserves all the best out of life, everything will be OK, go forward with your head up high and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime…[Read more]

    • thanks @oliver… it is healing and today is a great day!

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    I am so powerful and I am love…. I am love materialized into a body of light. That’s why my name is Spectrolite7, the spectrum of the rainbow is in me. I attract harmonious experiences. I’m grateful for traveling and experiencing new interesting things. I’m grateful for my supportive clients, friends and family. I’m grateful for my healthy…[Read more]

    • It’s great to see you positive, upbeat and happy @spectrolite7, keep smiling and always be the fantastic human-being that you are, I’m sure everything will continue going amazingly for you, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    My life is amazing, I live comfortably, I am wealthy, abundant and healthy. I have beautiful family and friends who support and love me. I love to explore and enjoy it very much every day as I go out into nature and travel on a daily basis. I eat healthy vegan food as I have an abundance of it growing in my crop garden. My family and I have a very…[Read more]

    • It’s great to see you positive, upbeat and happy @spectrolite7, I’m sure everything will continue going amazingly for you, keep smiling and stay awesome, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    who has water signs in their charts? probably everyone here…

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    took a shower hoping it’ll help my body feel better. I probably could use an icepack for my head.. I think I just have a lot of inflammation because all the sugar I ate… and also didn’t drink enough water when I was out in california… so was probably very dehydrated…

    • Do eat, drink well and take care of yourself @spectrolite7, I want to see you feeling healthy, positive and happy in mind, body and spirit, hold your head up high and have a wonderful day, you will be OK, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    my body feels in pain at the moment… I hope the pain goes away, I really wouldn’t like to keep taking pain relievers… I’m probably going through withdrawals from something, I have no idea what though.

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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 1 year, 9 months ago

    The boyfriend I had, kept using me… every time I came over, he would make it seem like he would take part in the paying for something but I ended up mostly always having to pay the whole thing… I just kept getting more and more annoyed with what he was doing, until I just couldn’t take it anymore… so If I don’t see him now, I shouldn’t…[Read more]

    • You are a wonderful person who deserves to be treated with love, care and respect @spectrolite7, I want to see you with someone special who will stick by you no matter what, everyone deserves a wonderful partner in their lives, you do too, remember the BT community is always here for you and so am I, smile and keep going forward, you can do it,…[Read more]

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