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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    On a more positive note, I’ve dived into my love for food and food photography by running and instagram page dedicated to all the food I eat. I’m pretty pleased with all the different stuff I’ve been having, and overall using this instagram account is almost therapeutic to me. It keeps my nerves in check.

    • That’s wonderful @xxbaybayxx, keep taking photos of inspiring things and things that put a smile on your face Oliver, food photos are so great and delicious hehe, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent about anything, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Awesome! I am so happy for you!!

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    I’m not sure what to do in this situation. I love my boyfriend, I love him more than anything….but I notice his friends are always so negative towards him. They mock him, constantly call him a woman, make demeaning memes using photos he’s posted of himself. And it’s honestly taking a toll on me mentally. Especially when their joking turns…[Read more]

    • You and your boyfriend deserve so much better @xxbaybayxx, your boyfriend’s friends should be so ashamed of themselves, they have absolutely no right to treat your boyfriend like that, I would tell your boyfriend to dump them and find friends who will treat him with kindness, love and compassion, hope everything works out for both of you Oliver,…[Read more]

    • @activity it can be two things:

      1) guys have a different notion of friendship and boundaries than women. Some guys see name calling and making fun of stuff, as a way to make their friendship strong. Might not make sense to you, but it does to them? – If it’s the case though, doesn’t mean you have to be confortable with it. You can tell his…[Read more]

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    2017 was one of the hardest years I had ever had to face. I’m surprised I’m doing so well and I’m glad I’m still alive.

    Dealing with abuse is hard. Being yelled at daily, being judged for everything you like to do….and not being able to be yourself is so mentally taxing on you. I spent 2 years wondering what’s wrong with me. Thinking I was…[Read more]

    • You have been through so much and survived, it shows how truly strong, amazing, courageous and brave you are @xxbaybayxx, I’m sure things will go your way in the months and years ahead Oliver, you will be reunited with your daughter and have a wonderful place to live with your boyfriend, I wish you all the best, don’t let the past memories of…[Read more]

    • How incredible and inspirational your strength is. Keep moving forward, don’t let the darkness control you. I am proud <3

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    So the last time I updated this, I think I made mention that I started talking to my ex from highschool again.

    It’s currently June and that man and I are going on 5 months together.

    I’m currently out of a abusive household that my other ex had me trapped in, and got over the pains that they caused me. I’m doing better, eating better, finally…[Read more]

    • It’s so good to read you are in a path that makes you happy @xxbaybayxx. I really hope life keeps bringing you joy and happiness, you deserve it. Keep going!!

    • It’s great to see you happy with how things are in your life @xxbaybayxx, I’m sure things will continue getting better and brighter for you Oliver, smile and keep being the awesome person that you are, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • That’s fantastic news; I am very thrilled for you!

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 7 months, 1 week ago

    Had an ex from years ago message me again. In two days he made me feel better than anyone has in two whole years.
    I’m glad we’re talking again. I needed this.

    • Hopefully you will be able to rekindle a relationship/friendship with your ex @xxbaybayxx, keep smiling because I’m sure things will work out for the both of you Oliver, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 7 months, 1 week ago

    I just gave up on love all together. Been hurt too many times by too many people.
    I’m tired of you ignoring my messages then seeing pictures of you with another woman when you’re supposed to be at work? Really shows the lies you told me. Glad you never cared.

    • You are such a loving, special and amazing person who deserves to be treated right by your partner @xxbaybayxx, you will find true love Oliver, you will meet your soulmate Oliver, everyone deserves someone amazing in their lives, you do too, stay positive and keep going forward, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay…[Read more]

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 7 months, 2 weeks ago

    Started becoming physically abused by my ex.
    Working my ass off to move out as soon as possible.

    • Don’t let your horrible ex abuse or hurt you @xxbaybayxx, no one deserves to be treated like that Oliver, I want to see you happy with a loving partner who will give you unconditional support and dignity, do move out and find a place where you can live in safety and feel secure, please tell someone about what is going on because I don’t want to…[Read more]

    • holy shit this is serious, have you tell someone about this? like your family or friends? maybe they can lend you some place to stay for a while

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 8 months ago

    Why does gender have to be such a complex concept?
    A few years ago I came out as genderfluid with heavy male feelings, which being fluid has been a blast for me so far….if I could pass as a male.
    But recently it’s been causing quite the concern for me. I’ve been wanting to isolate myself because I hate the body I’m in. I’m not sure if I…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 8 months ago

      Be proud of who you are and who you want to become @xxbaybayxx, look in the mirror Oliver and smile at the fabulous person you see staring back at you, truly love, embrace and cherish every part of yourself Oliver, you can do it, smile and keep going forward, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @xxbaybayxx I found that most people in your situation aren’t happy overall. Specially with themselves. Maybe you are uncertain about your gender but you need to start looking beyond that. Maybe there are issues you need to work on first before considering gender. DOn’t make rushed decisions, think about it very well and firstly try to fix all…[Read more]

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 8 months ago

    My depression has been horrible these past 2 days. It got the point where I was threatening to take my own life.
    Ended up having the cops called on me…which in return made me feel even more like shit than before. Ah, I love when nothing helps.

    • Oli replied 8 months ago

      Please don’t feel down, sad or depressed @xxbaybayxx, you are such a fabulous. special and amazing person who deserves all the happiness, love and brightness that the world has to offer, everything will be OK Oliver, focus on all the things that bring you hope and surround yourself with positivity, I want to see you truly smiling and making each…[Read more]

    • @xxbaybayxx have you tried seeking for help? I know it might not seem like it helps but honestly if you are in this situation anything is usefull. People who are suicidal in reality really don’t want to die. They just want the pain to stop. And it can stop with help. Never give up ok? Life is shitty but it can be less shitty I pinky promise. Much love

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted a new activity comment 8 months, 1 week ago

    In reply to: ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update I keep screwing up my love life and I’m so tired of it. View

    I want someone with a sense of humor, willing to accept all my quirks and weirdness. Someone who’s open minded that loves me for me.
    Maybe a little someone with a love of music too~

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 8 months, 1 week ago

    The one guy who can’t stay with me for longer than a week without breaking my heart told me he’s moving to my state, 30 minutes away from me, in the early parts of next year.
    I’m not sure if I should worry or not, because he’s doing it to make amends with me, saying he’s in love with me and wants to work something out.

    • Hopefully you can build up a relationship or friendship with this guy if you feel he is right for you @xxbaybayxx, don’t let him break your heart or let you down Oliver, you are a wonderful person who deserves someone special in your life, everyone deserves to meet their soulmate, you do too, I wish you all the best, inbox me anytime if you want…[Read more]

    • @xxbaybayxx Yeah, it’s a lot to be put up as the reason for a big choice like moving, but as long as you make it clear that it’s his choice and you won’t accept any blaming for whatever might go wrong, I guess you can see how it goes.

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 8 months, 1 week ago

    Life is rough, every single little depressive episode has me thinking of killing myself. Because people in my life feel like I need to believe that I’m worthless. I’m told having a child has ruined my life and I’m a mistake for it. I’m told I’m a wasteful abuser because I got myself a tattoo, something I’ve wanted for years. Told I’m a…[Read more]

    • Please don’t harm yourself or do anything bad @xxbaybayxx, you are such a wonderful person who is on this earth to do amazing things, support and cherish your daughter with all your heart, love her unconditionally, please don’t let anyone be horrible to you, surround yourself with the things that bring you down and know you are so much stronger…[Read more]

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 8 months, 1 week ago

    Last night I got told that I’m invalid just because I’m biologically female. Got told that producing human life inside of me was nothing and after giving birth to my daughter 9 months ago, my life became worthless. It hurts to hear these words from the father of said child. It takes a lot to create a life and it took a lot out of me. It…[Read more]

    • Don’t let him be horrible to you @xxbaybayxx, he should treat you with love, care and compassion, focus on doing what is best for yourself and your daughter Oliver, you are not worthless, you are a special and amazing person who is awesome and is a wonderful parent to your child, try to stay positive and don’t let anyone or anything bring you…[Read more]

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    I keep screwing up my love life and I’m so tired of it.

    • I don’t know you Oliver but I do know the feeling, and I believe someday we will both find someone to be happy with. Someone who gets it, someone cool and funny and totally hot that’s what I want. What about you? What kind of person do you want?

    • Everyone deserves a wonderful partner who will stick by and love them unconditionally, you do too @xxbaybayxx, you will meet your soulmate Oliver, someone amazing is out there waiting for you, you will meet the right person for you, stay positive and keep going, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent Oliver, stay strong, you…[Read more]

    • I want someone with a sense of humor, willing to accept all my quirks and weirdness. Someone who’s open minded that loves me for me.
      Maybe a little someone with a love of music too~

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    ◆☆Oliver☆◆ posted an update 9 months ago

    I don’t go to therapy because I’m scared to. I don’t want to be one who takes pills all the time.
    But at the same time I need something to fight my occasional depressive episodes. Something to calm my anxiety when I go out in public. And something to stop the voices in my head that distract me from daily work.

    I’m just scared. I don’t want…[Read more]

    Mood : Worried
    • Oli replied 9 months ago

      Don’t let pain, sadness or depression get you down @xxbaybayxx, try to find the right help and support that will benefit you Oliver like a counsellor or therapist, be as upbeat as you can and know the dark moments will pass because so many more brighter days are ahead for you Oliver, do express yourself an get your thoughts out in a healthy way,…[Read more]

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    ☯✮ Oliver ✮☯ posted an update 9 months ago

    It’s almost insane how long it’s been since I’ve logged in to this site.
    Life is good, I have a wonderful daughter now. I’m a survivor of verbal and emotional abuse as my ex tried to destroy who I was.

    I’m now in love, self harm free for years, and moving on in life.

    I’m glad I didn’t let this depression beat me, I knew I was missing…[Read more]

    • Oli replied 9 months ago

      It’s great to see you back on BT @xxbaybayxx and fantastic to see you happy Oliver, hope things continue going amazingly for you, make your relationship with your soulmate stronger as each day passes and always be a wonderful parent to your child, don’t let your mean ex get you down Oliver, you are a fabulous and incredible human-being who is…[Read more]

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    ☯✮ Oliver ✮☯ posted a new activity comment 2 years, 4 months ago

    In reply to: Angel posted an update [INTERNAL SQUEEING] ♥ ♥ ♥https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ol9E5t0l8Mo View

    Damien Dawn <3

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    ☯✮ Oliver ✮☯ posted an update 2 years, 4 months ago

    It DOES get better. After battling with my suicidal depression for many years I am finally free. I have a job, a wonderful boyfriend, and I love my life. No matter what you just need to keep that chin up and carry on. I believe in all of you.

    Mood : Amazed
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    ☯✮ Oliver ✮☯ changed their profile picture 2 years, 4 months ago

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