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    Trevor posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    It’s taken me a few months now, but I’ve finally brought my Discord server back to life! The server, Creative Minds, is open to the public, but still has a cozy and intimate feel to it. We’re a family of artists, photographers, Twitch streamers, Youtubers, writers, nerds, filmmakers and all those who aspire to create. We help each other get on…[Read more]

    Mood : Excited
    • It’s great to see you able to get things up and running smoothly @nightwake, keep using these platforms to help, support and inspire others to achieve their dreams Trevor, you are doing wonderful things Trevor, keep being the fantastic person that you are and always smile, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

    • @nightwake I write poetry alot. Would love to have some feedback and help others with their projects

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years ago

    I have a private Discord server I setup for twitch streamers… there are 40 people in there and growing… but when I tried to get a BlahTherapy server going, public even… I couldn’t seem to get a solid foothold for it to get established.

    I was thinking about making a website, a place for people to write articles about depression, anxiety, mental…[Read more]

    Mood : Apathetic
    • Oli replied 2 years ago

      Hopefully you will get the server up and running soon @nightwake, it’s great that you want to create a place where others can share struggles and help each other Trevor, remember to look after yourself as well, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 1 month ago

    Finally got the website started… but then didn’t touch it over the past … it’s been 5 DAYS already?! Anyway check it out if you want. Consider this ”alpha” phase, only published so that I can show people instead of trying to explain what I’m trying to do, also it allows multiple different people to (eventually) work on it at once.…[Read more]

    Mood : Tired
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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 1 month ago

    Finally got the website started. NOW I just need to get excited, seem to be tired all the time and sleep so much lately. Prolly all the stress I’ve been under.

    Mood : Restless
    • Make sure to take good care of yourself:) Take a nice shower, eat your favorite meal, and rest rest rest. You’ll feel brand new and pumped up in no time!

    • I’m sure your website is amazing @nightwake, do rest and look after yourself Trevor, hope you have a great day, I’m always here for you :) (hugs)

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 1 month ago

    Just missed my web designer today. dammit… 3rd day in a row now. Dunno if I’m ever getting this website up.

    Mood : Restless
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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: Kendra =) posted an update I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO ASAP !!!! View

    Feel free to contact me anytime, day or night. If I don’t get back to you right away it’s because I’m sleeping, otherwise I’m open to talk 24/7. You’ll get through this, I promise!

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: posted an update A dude asked me to take a picture of him on the train then asked me to take one with him. It doesn’t help being unphotogenic. View

    Naw he’s gonna put it on his facebook/etc and play it off like you’re his hot new girlfriend. Even the people that know him, he’s hoping those poeple will be thinking, ”damn, I never knew that guy was such a ladies man.” ;P haha

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 1 month ago

    In reply to: posted an update A dude asked me to take a picture of him on the train then asked me to take one with him. It doesn’t help being unphotogenic. View

    Sounds like someone had a crush on you. OoOoOo ;) <3

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 1 month ago

    Tonight’s been an emotional roller coaster. Had an amazing night hanging out on twitch with a good friend… but then got torn apart by someone I was really close to…. but at least now I’m back to another friend, someone who’s emotionally stable.. but even if she wasn’t, she at least wouldn’t take it out on me.

    Mood : Melancholy
    • Do surround yourself with kind and lovely friends who will stick by you and who will treat you with care @nightwake, do have a good day and try to stay upbeat Trevor, you will be OK, smile and don’t give up, I’m always here if you need to chat about absolutely anything, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

    • //Do surround yourself with kind and lovely friends who will stick by you and who will treat you with care//
      > @oliver I completely disagree. Focus on ’being’ that friend for others, treat others with care and truly help them and be at their side. Don’t look for such friends, BE that friend.

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 1 month ago

    I feel so weak lately… sleeping all day lately. No car, phone… I feel trapped.. stranded here. I have a few people I care about, mostly friends I’ve made on twitch… but even trying to get my life together, so as to be in a better position to help those people… I’m struggling. We seem to all love people based on what they DO, not who they…[Read more]

    Mood : Alone
    • Do love others and keep being compassionate @nightwake, surround yourself with positivity Trevor and keep doing things that give you hope and purpose, you are a special individual who is so kind, be upbeat and continue brightening up the world and this community, we all care about you Trevor, I want to see you living each day to the fullest,…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 2 months ago

    Not sure how to motivate myself to do things for my own self interest… when I absolutely despise myself …. passionately. The only thing I’m motivated to do is anything that will in some way contribute to my downfall and eventual expiration.

    Mood : Confused
    • Don’t hate yourself @nightwake, you are a lovely and wonderful person who deserves happiness and all the best in the world, smile and be kind to yourself, remember you are incredible and perfect Trevor, focus on going forward with confidence and living each day to the fullest, great things await you in life, please believe that and never give up,…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 2 months ago

    I have this heaviness on my chest… at all times. I give love to those who ask for it… or even flat out beg for it. But nothing in return… even hurtful little jabs, at my fully exposed heart at that point.. It’s like love has little to no value… or maybe it’s just my love?

    I used to think I was a robot..and I was, but … people I talk…[Read more]

    Mood : Crushed
    • Keep giving out love, happiness and hope @nightwake, you also deserve to receive compassion and affection from others too Trevor, do surround yourself with positivity and kindness, remember this community cares about you and will be here to support you no matter what, you will find true passion and purpose in life, believe in yourself and your…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 2 months ago

    The more I talk to people… the more alone I feel.

    Mood : Alone
    • I’m always here if you need someone to talk too @nightwake, do get your thoughts and feelings out in a way that benefits and helps you become happier Trevor, I want to see you truly smiling and doing great, remember to hold your head up high and don’t let your struggles get you down, you will survive and you will come out on top, always believe…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: mariko posted an update There are days where you can’t cope with anything at all. View

    I’m so sorry I wasn’t around. If you ever need anything, contact me directly. Let me know if you need anything, All of my social media, discord server, anything you need, <3 I know we all always say "If you ever need to talk, I'm always here" and yet no one ever does reach out. But I'm telling you, reaching out and letting me do anything to…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update in the group Group logoI feel so alone. 2 years, 2 months ago

    I don’t know if you really can ever, truly express yourself completely… just an approximation of what you really feel and think, bastardization of the pure thoughts and feelings within. We’re all alone, we try to connect with others, but fear of letting someone in… fear that no one every truly even wants in, or if we let someone in, the…[Read more]

    Mood : Crushed
    • I’m sure you will be able to confidently and openly express yourself @nightwake, get your feelings out in a good way that helps you Trevor, don’t let your struggles get you down, you are a survivor Trevor, remember to believe in yourself and keep going, I know you can do it, I’ll always be here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime,…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 2 months ago

    I cried myself to sleep Friday night, Saturday night I played Cards Against Humanity with a group online… we all had a blast and I was laughing myself to tears all night. Last night through til today, I just feel alone. In the past the solitary existence became normalized and routine, but after tasting what it feels like to actually be…[Read more]

    Mood : Alone
    • Please don’t feel alone @nightwake, you are such a special and kind person who deserves to be surrounded by positivity, love and hope Trevor, remember this community is always here for you and so am I, smile and keep being the fantastic star that you are, keep going forward and focus on all the great things that lie ahead for you Trevor, believe…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 2 months ago

    It’s 4:48am here right now. I’m staying up all night to redo my entire bedroom. Pull out what I can, clean everything, then bring all the furniture/etc back in, but in a totally different arrangement. I just can’t decide on the “best” layout. I still have plenty to do without moving any furniture until I settle on a final layout scheme.…[Read more]

    Mood : Accomplished
    • Glad you managed to redo your room @nightwake, do have a wonderful day and keep being wonderful Trevor, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 2 months ago

    In reply to: Cecelia posted an update apparently PLANNING a whole fucking trip to PARIS everyday and all night, AND STUDYING 3 LANGUAGES evry day and night AND working on videos and writing and reading EVERYDAY is being lazy? […] View

    Selfish people only care about themselves, psychic vampires that sap your energy and mood. She only sees things you do that benefit her directly as you doing things. Because her level of narcissism leaves her emotionally cripple and incapable to truly care about anyone but herself.

    Don’t let the cancer of her personality latch onto you like…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 3 months ago

    In reply to: Trevor posted an update I hate being paralyzed by anxiety… I wish my frustration could override my anxiety and I could just rage through my to-do list. View

    Thanks… Yeah yesterday was pretty dark for me. Luckily I’m in a good mood today though, which I used to get work done on my bedroom, which then made my mood even better…. so hopefully I can keep this domino effect going for a while… maybe even establish some MOMENTUM for once! haha Because just like how running down a hill is easier than…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 3 months ago

    A few hours ago, I finally switched over from being soul crushingly depressed into full on MANIC mode! To a lesser extend I’d been depressed the whole week…but the past couple of days, I’ve never felt such a vast emptiness in my heart or a more profound sadness within my soul. I’m just glad SOMETHING changed, because holy shit feeling that…[Read more]

    Mood : Accomplished
    • Try to stay as positive as you can @nightwake, fill your mind with happiness and love Trevor, I’m sure your website will be absolutely amazing once you have finished it, do keep going and never give up, create what will make you feel wonderful, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always…[Read more]

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