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    Trevor posted an update 1 week, 3 days ago

    It’s funny, I just realized that my profile picture is one I took in my car from the LAST time I was homeless, lol. I guess since I’m living in a newer car these days, I should upload a new photo.

    Over the next year I plan on focusing on going to appointments and get my health under control for once. But I’m not going to just be sitting around…[Read more]

    Mood : Alone
    • Please don’t feel alone @nightwake, you will meet all those objectives on your list Trevor, they are your hopes, dreams and aspirations that will all come true for you Trevor, always stay positive and believe in yourself Trevor, everything will go your way, by the way, if you ever need some help with these projects or anything and a friend from…[Read more]

    • All of those things seem so exciting to do!!

    • I like your list of goals and think this is a great way to stay motivated and engaged with life. All the best to you.

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    Trevor posted an update 1 week, 3 days ago

    It’s been a terrible past 2 months. But the one thing I can always count on, is that every time I reach my lowest points, I can always come on here and find compassion and empathy. I’ve been going through a lot that I can’t even openly talk to friends or family about. Sometimes I find myself drowning in loneliness during long nights when I…[Read more]

    Mood : Grateful
    • Stay positive and know you will make great things happen @nightwake, you will lead a truly successful, happy and productive life filled with so much brightness Trevor, I know how you feel, I’m shy too and find it hard to connect, bond and form relationships with others, it’s nice to see that someone reached out to you Trevor, do appreciate and…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 1 month, 1 week ago

    The past two years in an abusive relationship are over with now. But I was beaten half to death and ended up going to jail. Most of my memories are coming back now, but they’re all terrible. I already miss waking up in jail with my head split open and not knowing who I was.

    I have a plan to get my affairs in order over the next couple of months…[Read more]

    Mood : Crushed
    • @nightwake

      This is just horrible. I’m so sorry to hear that this happened to you.

      I am glad, though, that you’re out of an abusive relationships. I know all too well what it’s like being in one of those.

      I hope you manage to set your plan to action, and I have no doubt that you’ll be able to. Also, hopefully you’ll start to feel better…[Read more]

    • It’s horrible that you had to suffer for so long, and that you’ve ended up losing memories, Trevor. You are very brave for taking that step; the first one for a big change in your life. I know you’ll get everything in order and create some wonderful media. Here for you @nightwake, you can do it.

    • Oli replied 1 month ago

      I’m so sorry that happened to you @nightwake, no-one deserves to be abused or hurt, it’s good that you have left that abusive relationship, do take time to work on finding yourself and being the person you want to be, don’t let the abuse hold you back from achieving your dreams Trevor, please know that you are so strong, courageous and brave, I…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Vented out some of my rage, but I have no real creative outlets. I think I’m going to write a short story, it’ll probably be some stupid edgelord emo sounding shit… but what ever. I can’t express myself and even if and when I can, no one gives a shit… I don’t blame them.

    If I can make it a little more interesting though, a way to put a…[Read more]

    Mood : Exhausted
    • good luck I bet it would be good because real emotions are attached

    • Do find a way to get your thoughts, feelings and emotions out @nightwake, don’t bottle things up Trevor, do write or create something that expresses how you feel, remember so many people care about you, the BT community does and so do I, inbox me anytime if you ever want to chat or vent about anything, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Trevor posted an update 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    Nights like tonight I really just want to die. “Luckily” I’m far too full of rage to point that devastation inward right now. I wish I could just choke the life out of someone right now. Just venting, but omg I fucking hate everyone in my life right now. I’m trapped in a 2 year long abusive relationship and I’ve been plotting my escape for…[Read more]

    Mood : Ashamed
    • I’m sorry to hear you are in such situation Trevor. I don’t know what material or personal resources do you have right now (if you can move with family, or to another city, communicate by phone with family/friends, etc.), and for what you said, speaking with your partner about how you’ve been feeling doesn’t look like an potion. Situations…[Read more]

    • You don’t deserve to be treated like that @nightwake, no one does Trevor, try to find a way to leave that abusive relationship and move on Trevor, you are a good person who deserves to be loved, appreciated and valued by your partner, you will find a way out and so many happier and brighter days will be ahead, I’m always here if you need to chat…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    It’s taken me a few months now, but I’ve finally brought my Discord server back to life! The server, Creative Minds, is open to the public, but still has a cozy and intimate feel to it. We’re a family of artists, photographers, Twitch streamers, Youtubers, writers, nerds, filmmakers and all those who aspire to create. We help each other get on…[Read more]

    Mood : Excited
    • It’s great to see you able to get things up and running smoothly @nightwake, keep using these platforms to help, support and inspire others to achieve their dreams Trevor, you are doing wonderful things Trevor, keep being the fantastic person that you are and always smile, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

    • @nightwake I write poetry alot. Would love to have some feedback and help others with their projects

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    I have a private Discord server I setup for twitch streamers… there are 40 people in there and growing… but when I tried to get a BlahTherapy server going, public even… I couldn’t seem to get a solid foothold for it to get established.

    I was thinking about making a website, a place for people to write articles about depression, anxiety, mental…[Read more]

    Mood : Apathetic
    • Hopefully you will get the server up and running soon @nightwake, it’s great that you want to create a place where others can share struggles and help each other Trevor, remember to look after yourself as well, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    Finally got the website started… but then didn’t touch it over the past … it’s been 5 DAYS already?! Anyway check it out if you want. Consider this ”alpha” phase, only published so that I can show people instead of trying to explain what I’m trying to do, also it allows multiple different people to (eventually) work on it at once.…[Read more]

    Mood : Tired
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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    Finally got the website started. NOW I just need to get excited, seem to be tired all the time and sleep so much lately. Prolly all the stress I’ve been under.

    Mood : Restless
    • Make sure to take good care of yourself:) Take a nice shower, eat your favorite meal, and rest rest rest. You’ll feel brand new and pumped up in no time!

    • I’m sure your website is amazing @nightwake, do rest and look after yourself Trevor, hope you have a great day, I’m always here for you :) (hugs)

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    Just missed my web designer today. dammit… 3rd day in a row now. Dunno if I’m ever getting this website up.

    Mood : Restless
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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    In reply to: Kendra =) posted an update I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO ASAP !!!! View

    Feel free to contact me anytime, day or night. If I don’t get back to you right away it’s because I’m sleeping, otherwise I’m open to talk 24/7. You’ll get through this, I promise!

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    In reply to: posted an update A dude asked me to take a picture of him on the train then asked me to take one with him. It doesn’t help being unphotogenic. View

    Naw he’s gonna put it on his facebook/etc and play it off like you’re his hot new girlfriend. Even the people that know him, he’s hoping those poeple will be thinking, ”damn, I never knew that guy was such a ladies man.” ;P haha

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    In reply to: posted an update A dude asked me to take a picture of him on the train then asked me to take one with him. It doesn’t help being unphotogenic. View

    Sounds like someone had a crush on you. OoOoOo ;) <3

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    Tonight’s been an emotional roller coaster. Had an amazing night hanging out on twitch with a good friend… but then got torn apart by someone I was really close to…. but at least now I’m back to another friend, someone who’s emotionally stable.. but even if she wasn’t, she at least wouldn’t take it out on me.

    Mood : Melancholy
    • Do surround yourself with kind and lovely friends who will stick by you and who will treat you with care @nightwake, do have a good day and try to stay upbeat Trevor, you will be OK, smile and don’t give up, I’m always here if you need to chat about absolutely anything, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never…[Read more]

    • //Do surround yourself with kind and lovely friends who will stick by you and who will treat you with care//
      > @oliver I completely disagree. Focus on ’being’ that friend for others, treat others with care and truly help them and be at their side. Don’t look for such friends, BE that friend.

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    I feel so weak lately… sleeping all day lately. No car, phone… I feel trapped.. stranded here. I have a few people I care about, mostly friends I’ve made on twitch… but even trying to get my life together, so as to be in a better position to help those people… I’m struggling. We seem to all love people based on what they DO, not who they…[Read more]

    Mood : Alone
    • Do love others and keep being compassionate @nightwake, surround yourself with positivity Trevor and keep doing things that give you hope and purpose, you are a special individual who is so kind, be upbeat and continue brightening up the world and this community, we all care about you Trevor, I want to see you living each day to the fullest,…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 9 months ago

    Not sure how to motivate myself to do things for my own self interest… when I absolutely despise myself …. passionately. The only thing I’m motivated to do is anything that will in some way contribute to my downfall and eventual expiration.

    Mood : Confused
    • Don’t hate yourself @nightwake, you are a lovely and wonderful person who deserves happiness and all the best in the world, smile and be kind to yourself, remember you are incredible and perfect Trevor, focus on going forward with confidence and living each day to the fullest, great things await you in life, please believe that and never give up,…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 9 months ago

    I have this heaviness on my chest… at all times. I give love to those who ask for it… or even flat out beg for it. But nothing in return… even hurtful little jabs, at my fully exposed heart at that point.. It’s like love has little to no value… or maybe it’s just my love?

    I used to think I was a robot..and I was, but … people I talk…[Read more]

    Mood : Crushed
    • Keep giving out love, happiness and hope @nightwake, you also deserve to receive compassion and affection from others too Trevor, do surround yourself with positivity and kindness, remember this community cares about you and will be here to support you no matter what, you will find true passion and purpose in life, believe in yourself and your…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted an update 2 years, 9 months ago

    The more I talk to people… the more alone I feel.

    Mood : Alone
    • I’m always here if you need someone to talk too @nightwake, do get your thoughts and feelings out in a way that benefits and helps you become happier Trevor, I want to see you truly smiling and doing great, remember to hold your head up high and don’t let your struggles get you down, you will survive and you will come out on top, always believe…[Read more]

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    Trevor posted a new activity comment 2 years, 9 months ago

    In reply to: mariko posted an update There are days where you can’t cope with anything at all. View

    I’m so sorry I wasn’t around. If you ever need anything, contact me directly. Let me know if you need anything, All of my social media, discord server, anything you need, <3 I know we all always say "If you ever need to talk, I'm always here" and yet no one ever does reach out. But I'm telling you, reaching out and letting me do anything to…[Read more]

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