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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 5 months ago

    why does dying have to be so difficult? stupid human evolution

    • Please don’t think like that @buenowaffle, you deserve to be here, you were put on this earth to do amazing things and to make a positive impact, do your best to focus on doing things in life that bring you happiness, hope and joy, smile and remember everything will be OK, you are a fighter who will overcome and who never gives up, believe in…[Read more]

    • you are a successor of an evolutionary tree that spans across 3.5 billion years, your ancestors have gone through thick and thin to carry their legacy on. you can say burden may have been forced next upon you but hey at least we know that they succeeded, and so can you :) (not implying in any way shape or form that you have to have children if you…[Read more]

    • Now is not your time to go,you can get through this, I know you can, you owe it to your future self not to give up!

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    Blueberry posted a new activity comment 2 years, 5 months ago

    In reply to: Blueberry posted an update guys im pretty sure i used to have anxiety but as i became more depressed it kinda faded away a bit. i remember being super scared of going into stores and stuff and now i dont care all […] View

    thats not exactly what i was looking for but okay

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 5 months ago

    guys im pretty sure i used to have anxiety but as i became more depressed it kinda faded away a bit. i remember being super scared of going into stores and stuff and now i dont care all that much. its like theres this old little friend in the back of my mind panicking but i keep walking into the store. i also am a lot of a gentleman and if my…[Read more]

    • Try to relax and focus on making yourself feel good and calm @buenowaffle, take deep breathes and try to stay positive, maybe try meditation, hopefully it will help you feel at ease, I want the best for you, hold your head up high, keep going and don’t give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my…[Read more]

    • thats not exactly what i was looking for but okay

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 5 months ago

    oh right guys i got some meds for my sadness and they didnt even need to investigate what was wrong. my two plans are now: wait until after gradustion to start taking them cause the side effects are even more depression and if i get those side effects i will surely not be able to do qnything at all and ill get multiple Fs. or take them all at once and die

    • Please don’t harm yourself @buenowaffle, do your best to keep fighting and focus on your wonderful future that lies ahead for you, you have so much to see and do in life, great things will happen and you will make all your dreams come true, everything will be OK, hold your head up high and remember to smile, be kind to yourself and never give up,…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 5 months ago

    is it normal to fantasize about the creepy guys you once met and you at the moment were terrified that they were going to rape you? i think i just have a serious lack of touch and affection..

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 6 months ago

    sorry im kinda stressed

    • We are all here to support you @buenowaffle, I’ll always be here if you need to chat or vent anytime, feel free to message me, I want to help you :) (hugs)

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 6 months ago

    also please understand that im not sad anf suicidal because something happened im just fucking depressed

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 6 months ago

    fucking shit i just realized ive been constantly distracting myself cause if im distracted i feel fine and i know that once i stop distracting myself ill be sad and once im sad ill be looking for hooks or other stuff where i can freaking hang myself and im actually scared i dont know it feels like im different people depending on my mood but im…[Read more]

    • Do relax and focus on making yourself feel positive and happy @buenowaffle, you are a good person who will do great things, I want to see you feeling uplifted and fantastic, don’t let anything stand in your way, you can do it, believe in yourself and never give up, remember you are a warrior who will overcome, I’m always here if you need to chat…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 6 months ago

    im gonna kill myself but i dont wanna ruin any furniture or anything and i dont want it to look too horrible for the people who find me dead, what do i do? i also cant find any hooks to hang a rope on, since i dont wanna risk breaking the lamp

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    Blueberry posted a new activity comment 2 years, 6 months ago

    In reply to: Blueberry posted an update guys, i need help. i dont understand. im depressed, im sure of it, no professional has questioned it yet and im sure no other will, cause when i tell them about it they get that i […] View

    guys, i mean, people are saying im not depressed cause i care

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 6 months ago

    guys, i need help. i dont understand. im depressed, im sure of it, no professional has questioned it yet and im sure no other will, cause when i tell them about it they get that i actually am. but people keep saying “when youre depressed you dont care about anything”, but i care. i care mor3 about my appearence now than ever, because i *hate*…[Read more]

    • you need to let your peers and your family members know (if they already don’t), know that you aren’t alone and there’s so many people out there willing to help albeit some of them won’t be able to understand. focus on yourself first before others, what’s happening to you now is not your own fault. stay strong, things will get better in one…[Read more]

    • I would try to talk to someone about how you feel @buenowaffle, maybe a professional or a person you trust, please don’t let sadness and pain get you down, you will overcome all the tough times and come out so much stronger, remember to hold your head up high and focus on making each day bright and amazing, you are a fighter who never gives up,…[Read more]

    • I dont think you should have to go through that kind of pain on your own.

    • guys, i mean, people are saying im not depressed cause i care

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 7 months ago

    i wish i was a likeable person

    • You are a wonderful and amazing person @buenowaffle, please be kind to yourself and see yourself in an uplifting way, I want to see you truly smiling and being the special individual that you know you can be, believe in yourself and keep going, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent :) (hugs)

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    Blueberry posted a new activity comment 2 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Blueberry posted an update i dont wanna get medicine or be cured or be diagnosed with something else than depression. it feels like then ill still be dad and suicidal but no one will believe me and it wont be for […] View

    sad*

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 7 months ago

    i dont wanna get medicine or be cured or be diagnosed with something else than depression. it feels like then ill still be dad and suicidal but no one will believe me and it wont be for real and stuff

    • sad*

    • You don’t deserve any sadness @buenowaffle, you will make it through all the difficult times and come out so much stronger, remember to hold your head up high, so many more brighter and better days will be ahead, your future is filled with hope and joy, please believe that, everything will be OK and things will work out, keep being the fabulous…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    i dont understand why they keep encouraging me exercising when ive told them i only exercise cause i hate myself mulitple times. i literally started exercising cause i wanted to hurt myself but thought ”hey, im fat and ugly and i hate exercising so why not exercise to hurt/punish myself and ill get fit at the same time”

    • Please take care of yourself @buenowaffle, do stay healthy and be kind to yourself, remember you are beautiful and incredible inside and out, I want to see you feeling positive and truly loving yourself, don’t hurt yourself, focus on being happier in mind, body and soul, you can do it, believe in yourself and don’t give up, I’m always here if…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    so im supposed to see some sort of school therapist soon. i dunno.. im not sure ill dare.. what am i even supposed to tell her

    • Tell them how you are truly feeling about life @buenowaffle, I’m sure you will be able to open up and express yourself clearly, hopefully the therapy will help you, keep going and don’t give up, feel free to message me anytime if you want to chat or vent, my inbox is always open, stay strong. you are never alone :) (hugs)

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    Blueberry posted a new activity comment 2 years, 8 months ago

    In reply to: Blueberry posted an update im worthless and no one will ever like me for real View

    its okay though, i dont deserve it

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    im worthless and no one will ever like me for real

    • its okay though, i dont deserve it

    • Please don’t think like that @buenowaffle, you are such a special and fantastic individual who deserves to smile and feel fabulous, please be kind to yourself and don’t let anything get you down, I may not know you personally but I do care and I always will, I’m sure so many other people do care about you also, try to focus on all the positives…[Read more]

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    ive been feeling surprisingly good about the way i look lately. im scared of how much ill hate my face when it turns around again

    • You are beautiful and incredible every single day @buenowaffle, please be kind to and love yourself, smile and see yourself in an uplifting way, I want to see you feeling fabulous, you can do it, never give up, remember you are a light who keeps shining and brightening up the world, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent :) (hugs)

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    Blueberry posted an update 2 years, 8 months ago

    ate literally the tiniest click of nail polish and my throat hurts. pretty sure its placebo effect. i think youd have to swallow at least one jar to get affected

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