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    Blueberry posted an update 7 years, 10 months ago

    guys im pretty sure i used to have anxiety but as i became more depressed it kinda faded away a bit. i remember being super scared of going into stores and stuff and now i dont care all that much. its like theres this old little friend in the back of my mind panicking but i keep walking into the store. i also am a lot of a gentleman and if my friends are scared of going to the cashier and buying something ill go do it. ill do anything to help them. i dont think ive had anxiety attacks though. maybe only about exercising? like, when the teachers tried to force little me into getting out in the snow and doing something i couldnt do or wanted me to run a long way or something, id feel so bad and id like start crying or something? but i think ive had panic attacks, i cant tell if they are panic attacks cause if they arent then ive never had one so how would i know, but they were mostly connected to my paranoia? like if id get really paranoid sometime, id panic and it wouldnt stop until i pushed my nails into my arm or back and forced myself to calm down? i dunno. ive gotten meds and im scared that if i stop being depressed, ill get more anxious and maybe morr paranoid. but i also dont like being depressed so i dunno. but i think these meds are also for anxiety and panic attacks so will they prevent it? does any of this make sense? thoughts, anyone?

    • Try to relax and focus on making yourself feel good and calm @buenowaffle, take deep breathes and try to stay positive, maybe try meditation, hopefully it will help you feel at ease, I want the best for you, hold your head up high, keep going and don’t give up, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • thats not exactly what i was looking for but okay