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    Cecelia posted an update 11 months ago

    Ya how can I not go off on him and feel an utter mess when he has shown no display of respect for me and our relationship OR himself as an individual today, we need to talk but im at work and it shows i’m not ok rn. thank god today’s my friday for the week. ADD on top of that I’m on my period now with headache, menstrual & stomach cramps. Good…[Read more]

    • I’m sorry for coming off as aggressive and harsh, but I am NOT sorry for what I feel as it’s completely valid.

    • Please don’t apologise for how you feel @invincible, your partner really should treat you right, he should love, care, cherish, support and always be there for you sweetie, he should also take care of himself so he can feel better within himself and that will lead to your relationship becoming stronger and you both having more of a loving bond…[Read more]

    • thank you so much Oli, words can never express how grateful I am for you.

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    Cecelia posted an update 11 months, 1 week ago

    He doesn’t understand at all how hard it is for me because anytime I try I get knocked down, discouraged and no matter what no one shows any belief in me or respect that I can do it and when I do it – I get shit on.

    • Always follow your dreams, goals and aspirations @invincible, don’t let anyone or anything stand in the way of you achieving what you want in life beautiful angel Cecelia, anyone who tries to bring you down when you achieve great things isn’t worth your time sweetie, you deserve to be surrounded by those who will give you encouragement, support…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 11 months, 1 week ago

    I wish I was good enough. I found the root of this continuous feeling. It’s not just feeling good enough for the people around me, especially my boyfriend, but it’s the feeling of not feeling good enough for ME. Myself. Living for myself is not enough. Never has been. Crazy, because I know I’m capable and deserving – but changing your feeling…[Read more]

    • Please know you are good enough and you are worth it @invincible, remember to always be kind to yourself beautiful Cecelia and focus on making yourself feel positive, optimistic and happy mentally, emotionally and physically, please know your happiness matters and you truly deserve to have that in life Cecelia, also do focus on your wellbeing…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 11 months, 1 week ago

    Hello everyone! Long time no post! I’m doing alright, the past 2 or so weeks have been difficult with just so much loss recently. I’m just thankful that it’s summer time and I can spend more time in sunshine! Hope everyone else is doing well. I also should update my pfp lol.

    Mood : Content
    • Please remember to take care of yourself @kittymew, it can be difficult going through loss Kayla, but remember to focus on all the happy, upbeat and positive moments, surround yourself with all the things that recall better times and surround yourself with love, compassion and empathy, you can do it Kayla, do have a great summer and keep smiling…[Read more]

    • Welcome back Kayla :) . I’m sorry to read that you’ve suffered a recent loss, it’s something very difficult to go through. Although, it’s nice that you are looking forward the summer and to spend time outside! It’s does good for body and mind <3

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    Cecelia posted an update 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    Overwhelmed. Feeling like I’m too much.

    • What’s on your mind @invincible, please don’t feel overwhelmed, remember to be calm and find ways to ease your mind and put yourself in a relaxed and positive mindset sweetheart, take deep breathes and focus on making each day as brilliant as you can sweetie, do activities that make you smile and give you a sense of optimism, purpose and hope,…[Read more]

    • It’s one of the worst feelings to have. When you think you are too much, there’s nothing to convince you otherwise. Unfortunately, I know that feeling quite well. Cecelia, I just want you to know that you are enough. Never too less neither too much. Whenever you have that overwhelming feeling, try to remember that. You are an incredible fighter,…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 11 months, 2 weeks ago

    IDK I mean is it weird that he has his previous long term EXES in his phone saved as contacts open for them to text him and call, but he doesn’t want me keeping my male friends in my phone that I hardly even communicate with? Just doesn’t seem fair.. not about infidelity just respect and fairness… but whatever.

    • That’s not right at all @invincible, it sounds like he is trying to control you sweetie, who you can talk too, communicate with and who you can see, while being totally hypocritical, keeping previous exes as contacts for himself but restricting your right to contact male friends, you deserve a relationship that is truly open and honest beautiful…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 11 months, 3 weeks ago

    I joined Blah when I was 15. On Sunday I turned 25. Wild.

    • Hope you had a wonderful birthday @invincible, remember to think of how far you have come beautiful angel Cecelia and know that you will make all your dreams, goals and aspirations come true Cecelia, I’m sure that in all the time you have been on BT that this community has helped to make you feel happier, remember so many people care about you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year ago

    Up and down. With the draining, exhausted anxiety comes some exciting anxiety (good) and hope.

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year ago

    Panic attacks every night this week. Now utter anxiety. Car trouble and feeling emotionally neglected.

    • Oli replied 1 year ago

      Please try to find ways to put yourself at ease, relax and calm yourself mentally, emotionally and physically @invincible, don’t let anxiety break you down sweetie, take deep breathes, listen to the sounds of calmness and focus on putting yourself in a state of peace, happiness and positivity beautiful Cecelia, I hope you manage to get your car…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year ago

    Now that I have some creative and productive blocks opening up, and work is going OK rather than horridly — I am contemplating some aspects in my relationship. I could put my self down as everyone does as being ”overdramatic” or ”overthinking” — but I deserve to be heard and my concerns and questions legitimatized and taken seriously.

    • Oli replied 1 year ago

      You will overcome all the blocks and everything will work out amazingly for you @invincible, remember to stay positive and know you will make fantastic things happen beautiful angel Cecelia, keep working as hard as you can in your job but know your happiness and whether you are comfortable in the job should always come first sweetie, I would talk…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year ago

    My toxic boss got fired! So happy and relieved beyond belief! There is still toxicity deep within the company, so I will still be looking to leave – but I can do so without feeling like I’m gonna be sick everyday before & after work.

    • Oli replied 1 year ago

      That’s good to hear, you should be able to go to work feeling positive and ready to do your job to the best of your ability @invincible, I would find a job in a company where the culture is caring and where you feel truly happy and comfortable beautiful Cecelia, don’t let your former toxic boss sour you on finding a great job sweetie, I’m sure…[Read more]

    • thanks so much Oli ♥ SO much love to you!!

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year ago

    overwhelmed and not happy right now. :/

    • Oli replied 1 year ago

      I don’t want to see you feeling overwhelmed and unhappy @invincible, you are such a special, lovely and beautiful angel who deserves true happiness, positivity and brightness in your life sweetie, what’s on your mind Cecelia?, don’t let the sad and difficult times get you down sweetheart, focus on all the things in life that make you smile and…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    HOW can someone expect resepct when they never give it to me. I’ve been set up to fail so of course I’m gonna do all I can to get a taste of individuality and respectable freedom. Jesus. It’s overwhelming though and I panic and just get overwhelmingly depressed and just sleep. Hopefully this is the hard part before the success comes in.

    • They should respect, support and always be there to help you @invincible, anyone who disrespects you or stands in the way of your happiness, goals and dreams doesn’t deserve someone as amazing as you in their lives beautiful Cecelia, remember to be independent, be your own person sweetie, focus on your bright future that lies ahead and don’t let…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    Oh great now I am mega in the red for the week and it’s only monday heh.

    • Hope you are able to manage and make it through the week @invincible, don’t be afraid to reach out for support, help and assistance beautiful Cecelia, is there anyone or any organisations you can reach out to in your area sweetie?, try to stay positive, hold your head up high and keep going forward with optimism Cecelia, I wish I could help you…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    I feel utterly distressed and overwhelmed… I cannot take it anymore where I am treated so insignificantly and like an incapable child by my parent. And I am so over their lack of communication. It makes me sick & feel like shit. Why am I not allowed to be a human? Their twisted view of keeping me dependent, dumb & child-like in their systematic…[Read more]

    • You deserve so much better @invincible, your parents should treat you with love and always support you in what you want to do in life, I would talk to them openly and honestly sweetie, let them know how you feel, because you do deserve independence and to live a fulfilling life that is happy and where you can make your own choices and decisions…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    Panic attack and annoyance

    • Focus on putting your mind at ease, relax and find positive ways to calm yourself @invincible, don’t let anxiety break you down sweetie, I want to see you feeling wonderful physically, mentally and emotionally beautiful angel Cecelia, take deep breathes, meditate, listen to calm sounds or music, everything will be OK sweetie, hold your head up…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    How can work go from being great to being an absolute hell… it’s getting worse and worse each day, which is hard to believe but I am living it! LOOKINg for a job but feeling pressure from both my parent at home and my boyfriend at his place is getting to me..

    • I know how you feel, my job is stressful as I work for the emergency services in the UK but I try to cope with it as best I can @invincible, you deserve to be in a job that makes you feel positive and gives you a sense of fulfilment, remember that your happiness should always come first sweetie, I would try to find a job or career for yourself…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    I’m not uncomfortable, but I feel so uncomfortable

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5pG2VPXPITg

    • Please don’t feel uncomfortable @invincible, remember to stay positive, smile brightly and always be kind to yourself beautiful angel Cecelia, you deserve to feel comfortable, upbeat and wonderful sweetie, you will make it through the difficult moments and come out stronger as you are a brave survivor sweetheart, keep going forward with…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 3 months ago

    A day for staying busy and blasting music … woke up exhausted and snapped at by my toxic boss as well as my sick bf over the phone so… :-) thank god i have reasons to stay busy otherwise i’d break down just about now.

    • add my period on top of it… starting lol.

    • Please take care of yourself @invincible, remember to stay positive and surround yourself with happiness, hope and empathy beautiful angel Cecelia, your boss really should treat you with respect and not be toxic, as I’m sure you are a great employee who works hard, I would talk to your boyfriend about any issues in the relationship, always keep…[Read more]

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    Cecelia posted an update 1 year, 3 months ago

    Beyond stressed. I feel both my parent and partner tugging at me and I am losing myself in the process.. it’s very triggering because it’s reminiscent of my childhood. Emotionally gaslit by my parent and her having control over everything and i just feel paralyzed from the trauma and loss of control. All the pressure and stress from my intense…[Read more]

    • Your parents and your partner should treat you with love and always be there to support you @invincible, you are such a lovely, wonderful and amazing angel who deserves happiness in your life sweetheart, don’t let them gaslight or bully you Cecelia, you have been through so much sweetie and come out as a brave, strong survivor Cecelia, please…[Read more]

    • That last line just hit right in the spot… You are not a priority to yourself. It did hit a soft spot to me too, because I’m the same way. It’s very difficult to change that if it’s something you’ve been doing for a long time. Even so, you have to treat yourself with the same kindness and love that you would treat a loved one. This won’t…[Read more]

    • I view life as a mathematical consequence game, and sometimes one problem leads to another, and you may feel that everything wrong had to happen simultaneously. My solution to this was practising discipline about how I react to situations and turn those hardships into lessons to be learned or challenges to be won.

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