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    mini_beethoven posted an update 1 month, 3 weeks ago

    I miss being on this website! I’m thankful for all the hard times you all got me through

    Mood : Blissful
    • Hope you are doing well and things are going fantastically in your life @kittymew, it’s great to see you feeling blissful and back on BT, remember to smile brightly and always be the brilliant, fabulous and good person that you are Kayla, this site will always be here to support you, please know I’m always here for you too, feel free to inbox me…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    Hello everyone! Long time no post! I’m doing alright, the past 2 or so weeks have been difficult with just so much loss recently. I’m just thankful that it’s summer time and I can spend more time in sunshine! Hope everyone else is doing well. I also should update my pfp lol.

    Mood : Content
    • Please remember to take care of yourself @kittymew, it can be difficult going through loss Kayla, but remember to focus on all the happy, upbeat and positive moments, surround yourself with all the things that recall better times and surround yourself with love, compassion and empathy, you can do it Kayla, do have a great summer and keep smiling…[Read more]

    • Welcome back Kayla :) . I’m sorry to read that you’ve suffered a recent loss, it’s something very difficult to go through. Although, it’s nice that you are looking forward the summer and to spend time outside! It’s does good for body and mind <3

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    mini_beethoven answered question “i still have feelings but idk, help please !5 years, 5 months ago

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 5 years, 5 months ago

    My grandfather passed away last night. I was there when he died. I know it’s normal for me to grieve, but I feel guilty because I am jealous of how he treated and spend time with his other grandchildren. I’m just shocked by how quick everything transpired last night and also not looking forward to the events in the near future with the funeral.

    • I’m so sorry for your loss @kittymew, do remember all the happy moments you spent with your grandfather, all the times you laughed together and he made you happy Kayla, hope you managed to spend some time with him before he passed sweetie, be strong Kayla, you will make it through this, I’m always here if you need to talk, inbox me anytime, you…[Read more]

    • It’s not uncommon to have mixed feelings in these situations. Don’t feel bad about it @kittymew. When a beloved one passes away, we usually remember every moment and experience with them, and that involves good memories and bad memories. It’s going to be hard, but you’ll go through this. Take all the time you need to process everything that…[Read more]

    • I’m so sorry for your loss. I am sending you love and am here for you if you ever need to talk. This will be a hard time, but you will get through it because you are strong and courageous. ♥

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 6 years, 4 months ago

    Confirmed diagnosis and am starting ACA meetings. I hope this can help me from not being able to sleep. Went off of my antidepressant also, and I am more emotional but I know I need to work through my emotions. Still have my antianxiety in case I need it.

    • Hope going to the meetings truly help you and make you feel happier @kittymew, I want to see you positive and making each day as incredible as you can, do find good ways to get your thoughts and emotions out, don’t bottle things up, remember you are a wonderful person who is deserving of all the brightness that life has to offer, everything will…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven posted a new activity comment 6 years, 4 months ago

    In reply to: mini_beethoven posted an update I was diagnosed at my last counselling session with Complex PTSD. I’ve never experienced any trauma or abuse that I know of either. Idk how to feel. View

    hey guys. sorry i’ve been busy with school.
    she pinpointed that my parents used to “gaslight” me about my emotions and would pester me past the point of where they should have. It’s technically a form of abuse, but it’s hard for me to accept this because my parents always had food on the table and went to every recital etc. I think they…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 6 years, 5 months ago

    I was diagnosed at my last counselling session with Complex PTSD. I’ve never experienced any trauma or abuse that I know of either. Idk how to feel.

    Mood : Confused
    • I would continue to go to the counselling sessions and see how they can best help you, tell them about your thoughts, feelings and things that have happened in your life @kittymew, remember the BT community will always be here to support you Kayla and so will I, you are a wonderful person who truly deserves all the best, everything will be OK, you…[Read more]

    • @kittymew PTSD usually is severe trauma but sometimes ”light” PTSD can occour from abusive homes or relationships.
      Also remember therapists are humans, they have flaws. Is possible he misdiagnosed you.
      You can always request a second opinion if you are unsure about this

    • hey guys. sorry i’ve been busy with school.
      she pinpointed that my parents used to “gaslight” me about my emotions and would pester me past the point of where they should have. It’s technically a form of abuse, but it’s hard for me to accept this because my parents always had food on the table and went to every recital etc. I think they…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven started the forum topic What's the true meaning of finding yourself? in the group Group logoI don’t know who I am anymore. 6 years, 8 months ago

    How do we find ourselves when things that used to be interesting to us don’t interest us anymore? I’m still listening to the same music that I have for the past 5 years, but I’m just listening because there’s […]

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    mini_beethoven joined the group Group logoI don’t know who I am anymore. 6 years, 8 months ago

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    Guys I’m kinda bored with this site because there’s not a way to search for groups and not a way to ask questions like we used to be. It’s not as much as I liked before, but oh well, hoping soon they’ll get an app or something to keep it interesting.

    Mood : Bored
    • @kittymew completly agree. I think the question parts they removed because back in the day these fake accounts were spamming the entire question sections. Now the groups I think is working ok? At least I can still acess to it.
      But I agree with you, wish the questions came back :/

    • Hope the admin or the community can manage to make improvements/suggestions to the site so it can be made better @kittymew, we need a way to get the questions back up and member registrations without attracting spammers, bots or trolls, also to make the groups page easily accessible, you can search it through Google though, I want to see this…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    Really upset because of the shooting yesterday. It makes me uncomfortable to go anywhere without protection for myself. I hate that I can’t go anywhere without shootings happening. It sucks. I have picked at my skin and nails and I can’t stop my anxiety. I need to take my medicine soon.

    Mood : Anxious
    • Try to relax and have a good day @kittymew, find activities to do that put a smile on your face and make you feel at ease Kayla, you will be OK, do take your medication and look after yourself, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • @kittymew I’m so sorry. I’ve heard the news and is terrifying how innocent people were stolen from their lives just like that, specially in a church, a place where people go when they need to gain their strenght. To not mention I know that one of the victims was a child, that breaks my heart.
      I’m sending love from Portugal to you. I hope that…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven joined the group Group logoBlahTherapy Improvements/Suggestions 6 years, 8 months ago

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    Today is a new day. What happened yesterday is in the past, and today is the present. Make today everything you want it to be, and share a smile with someone today. Give someone a compliment on something you notice about them, it’ll sure make someone smile. Take some time to meditate today, and care for yourself. There are some good soundscape…[Read more]

    Mood : Hopeful
    • It’s great to see you inspiring others with positivity, compassion and hope @kittymew, always be the lovely person that you are, keep smiling and have a fabulous day, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • tru tru truuu i used to not think these things could make someone feel better but they actually do!
      have a good day to you too!

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    mini_beethoven posted a new activity comment 6 years, 8 months ago

    In reply to: Oli posted an update I cannot be saved from sinking deeper into this hole of depression, loneliness, sadness and pain, everything is so bleak for me, I can’t see any way out, it’s better to just give up, stop […] View

    We are here to listen if you need it Oli! Thank you for being a bright light to us even when you’re down. We are always here to listen and this website has great listeners and therapist to talk to. Keep your head up and always remember your BT community loves you!

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    I am baaaaaaaackkkkkkkk

    Mood : Calm
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    mini_beethoven posted a new activity comment 8 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Silent Rain posted an update I’m behind on the changes that took place. I just saw that the ”questions” section isn’t around anymore. I’m slow. View

    Why are the questions gone???

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    mini_beethoven posted a new activity comment 8 years, 7 months ago

    In reply to: Silent Rain posted an update I’m behind on the changes that took place. I just saw that the ”questions” section isn’t around anymore. I’m slow. View

    Why are the questions gone???

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 8 years, 7 months ago

    I’ve never wanted to harm myself more than I do now… I wish my parents would get off my case…

    • Please don’t harm yourself. I know how it is to have a pushy family. You have to be strong as possible and get pass those kind if thoughts. Please feel free to message me if you ever want to talk:)

    • No don’t do it. Don’t break for them, if you can beat this feeling then you CAN beat anything. Its hard because it’s worth it! You chose to give it up, and I don’t know you but I’m betting you did it because you knew it was the right thing to do….because you wanted a better life, to be a better more emotionally healthy happier person. I…[Read more]

    • Please don’t harm yourself @kittymew, your parents should treat you with all the love, happiness and support in the world Kayla, I would try to talk to them about things, make your parents see things from your point of view, be as honest and open as you can, I want to see you smiling and living each day to the fullest, you can do it Kayla, feel…[Read more]

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 8 years, 7 months ago

    I’ve been struggling with anxiety and for once I actually was able to make the breathing exercises work for me. I’m still struggling with it but I feel I have a little more control over it. I wish I could get a better grip on this but I need to keep on going. I need to live.

    • Try to calm yourself and relax @kittymew, keep doing breathing exercises and focus on all the things that put a smile on your face and that make you feel content, you are a wonderful person who deserves all the brightness and joy in the world Kayla, things will work out for you and everything will go your way, keep being the lovely and awesome…[Read more]

    • I’m glad you were able to get it under control, at least. That’s a step in the right direction.
      I’m sorry you had to deal with the anxiety, anyway, though. I know how unfun it is. If you ever need any support, you can always message me. I hope you feel better.

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    mini_beethoven answered question “Need Help with Depression, No Money8 years, 10 months ago

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