fireefoxx said 11 years, 1 month ago:

Today, I watched the love of my life tell another girl he loves her. He has no idea, but I am shattered. I’ve spent 2 years catering to his every wish, I’ve skipped work and college, and spent countless hard-earned dollars on him. I wouldnt mind it one bit, and had no problem with it, until I discovered diana. In the past relationships I’ve had, every single one ended because they cheated on me. I know what he’s done is wrong, but I feel like I’m the one that messed up by snooping around too much. I know i should be mad at him, but I’m not. I suppose thats what love does to you. I wouldnt know, I’m new to this. I need him, and despite how badly I’m hurt by him, I know he’s the only one that can make me better. I titled this “I am..”because I am who I am because of him. Why does this happen to me so much…am I doing something wrong? Or is it just bad luck? Please tell me i’m not crazy…

-fireefoxx

Swifting said 11 years, 1 month ago:

You’re not crazy. You’re heartbroken and you need to find a way to move on. Go to school, go to work, and go find who you are with out him. No one needs anyone else to be a whole and complete person. Everyone has to be whole before they can be a part of a relationship.

You’re doing nothing wrong. You can blame it on luck or immaturity.

Don’t give up on love because loves not giving up on you. It’s just waiting for the right one for you.

rayman1030 said 11 years, 1 month ago:

Well it may seem to you that you need him and he is your everything and vice versa, but if he would do such a thing as say he loves someone else, why would you waste your time on them? i know its very very hard to get over a first love, but after you find someone else, you realize how silly it was. and life moves on and on and on…. so begins the path towards bliss and happiness.

fireefoxx said 11 years, 1 month ago:

Rexual, It’s so nice to hear (however unfortunate the situation) that someone understands the heart tug that comes with not being able to move on. And you’re right. I cant move on. It’s impossible. Ive had many chances, I’ve even thought of printing out the converstations they’ve shared and tape them all to his stupid car. While I hate how I cant move on, i’m also still entranced by him.

fireefoxx said 11 years, 1 month ago:

I wish I could agree. However, I see myself being with him forever, even if it’s never gonna be just the two of us.
): i’m stuck.
and its bittersweet to the max.

fireefoxx said 11 years, 1 month ago:

Thanks, that means a lot. I would like to thank google, for it brought me here.

Deleted User said 11 years, 1 month ago:

yeah I found it through google as well….I typed in “feeling lonely” to see if anyone had felt the same. I’ve lost so many friends over the years, and now find myself friendless, except for my dog Rexual whom I named my profile after, he’s always by my side :]

fireefoxx said 11 years, 1 month ago:

I have a 23 pount cat named Minnow (most ironic name ever??) and he’s my partner in crime. Cant live without him!