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    Esteban posted an update 5 years, 5 months ago

    - 300g… But even the slightest loss of weight doesn’t make me happpy anymore. I should be glad I didn’t gain, but I won’t be happy until I see at least a 47kg on this scale again, and for this I know I need to drastically cut my intake, as low as before… I don’t dare to do this again, like I said, but since I need to feel like I still have some control… I’ll do everything not to dine tonight. Last fast were 18 hours long, so I have no excuses not to resist less hours without eating, even though because of my anorexia-screwed up metabolism, short fasts and low restriction aren’t enouhg to make me lose weight anymore…

    Well, I guess I’ll do the same and force myself to work out or clean the house to burn my cals. What a boring life when you can’t go out…

    Mood : Worried
    • Please eat, I want my little bro to be at a good weight @heartsofc, please don’t starve yourself, you truly deserve to be happy, positive and healthy, look after yourself little bro, I’ll always be here for you, you are so special and wonderful to me little bro, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) <3 (hugs)

    • Take care of yourself, Esteban, do eat and drink. Our body needs every vitamin, carbohydrate, protein, lipid, etc. to work properly and to keeps us healthy. Focus in activities that you usually enjoy to keep your mind busy, and try to rest and don’t take your body to it’s limit. And don’t be afraid to talk to people you trust, and seek for help. Your loved ones would be more than glad to listen to you, and help you. I and everyone in BT do care about you too <3.

    • You know the whole weight thing is BS… Muscles weight more then fat. Arnold Schwarzenegger was over 300LB he would be morbidly obese according to the BMI scale. Stay away from unnatural sugars but you don’t need completely cut it out of your diet eat plenty of proteins and fibers and for the love of your sanity stay off the scale. I don’t know what your goal is but starving yourself isn’t going to work and in the end make you fat because your body will learn to hold on to fat (yes your body has a mind of it’s own). Ask any health guru they will tell you the same. If you want to loss weigh put it to work… excise.

    • @unconditionalnorth I know this too well… When I started to restrict just a little again by skipping snack and dinner time, I didn’t loose weight but instead got fat tissue growing over my mostly-muscles {physically recovering from anorexia, I made way more muscle mass than fat at first). I started to gain weight again after being stabilized at an underweight weight for a very long time, and yet I still didn’t make much fat. I kind of regret now: first I didn’t lose weight by restricting again (because it’s too low to do anything), and now I have more fat mass. I wonder if that would have happenened if I didn’t try to cut my intake again… Guess I’ll never know but the weight I want will always be too low to be achieved or kept in healthy ways… I’m not ready to let go of this disease yet I see…

    • No one is ever happy with their looks and trying to achieve the impossible will be a never ending struggle (and causing you to be sick). I think a way to over come this is by letting go of that hope of being what you want to be and just be happy with who you are, and yes this will have the stages of grieving connected to i because you are letting go of something close to you. Set realistic goals and put that energy into it. focus on something else art, friends, family, relationships whatever but focusing so much on something so unreal will get you no where fast. If you reach out doing things that make you accomplished Like achieving in school, helping others, work, relationships or even personal projects you will start to love yourself more and more and feel more comfortable in you own skin. Change the focus of your energy.