Yeah but a few weeks ago I met a girl online who showed me love without expecting anything in return and knowing I had nothing to offer. Being loved for the sake of being… me. No other qualifiers like money, success, physique, a home or nice car, etc… just me, by myself… was enough on it’s own to be worthy of being loved by another person.
And a pretty great person at that. It really boosted my morale for literally weeks on end, but then I felt slighted by this person a week ago and as high as I was before, I crashed HARD into a deep depression. I immediately lost all the hope that I had been given and my will to do literally anything was sapped out of me.
But, unfortunately that can happen when you are fully reliant on someone emotionally and they have no idea whatsoever that they mean so much to you, or at least that your emotional state is 100% dependent on their actions. I could have easily been manipulated by her in that situation, but then again, her being the type of person who’d never do that is exactly one of the reasons why I became infatuated to begin with.
Now I just offer my love to those who need it and will accept it, This is all new to me as I was just awoken from being, all but emotionally dead, for the past 10 years or so. It’s only been a month since that girl gave my heart a ”jump start” and now, like a car, I feel like I am slowly able to recharge my battery under my own power.
After she helped me by giving me just that token of care, that charge of love and compassion and mutual trust and loyalty. Sorry for rambling, I guess I’m saying in a very roundabout way is, what do you think is the root cause of your sadness? For me, sometimes I think universally, it was a lack of love. Even sadness from a loss though, comes from loosing that source of love, if you really break it down to a cold, mechanical level. Once we figure out the core cause, or some of the primary drivers, we can start to articulate a plan of action as to how we can overcome these obstacles. <3
Please don’t feel down @invincible, you are such a kind and lovely person who deserves all the happiness in the world Cecelia, smile and focus on getting yourself to a better place, don’t let anything stand in your way, remember to be upbeat and keep fighting, you will make it through all of your struggles and come out stronger, believe in yourself and never give up, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, you will never be alone (hugs)
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I’m sorry to hear that, I feel the same way lately so I can totally relate. If you need anything let me know, I’m always open to talk.
thanks! and I’m sorry you feel the same way
Yeah but a few weeks ago I met a girl online who showed me love without expecting anything in return and knowing I had nothing to offer. Being loved for the sake of being… me. No other qualifiers like money, success, physique, a home or nice car, etc… just me, by myself… was enough on it’s own to be worthy of being loved by another person.
And a pretty great person at that. It really boosted my morale for literally weeks on end, but then I felt slighted by this person a week ago and as high as I was before, I crashed HARD into a deep depression. I immediately lost all the hope that I had been given and my will to do literally anything was sapped out of me.
But, unfortunately that can happen when you are fully reliant on someone emotionally and they have no idea whatsoever that they mean so much to you, or at least that your emotional state is 100% dependent on their actions. I could have easily been manipulated by her in that situation, but then again, her being the type of person who’d never do that is exactly one of the reasons why I became infatuated to begin with.
Now I just offer my love to those who need it and will accept it, This is all new to me as I was just awoken from being, all but emotionally dead, for the past 10 years or so. It’s only been a month since that girl gave my heart a ”jump start” and now, like a car, I feel like I am slowly able to recharge my battery under my own power.
After she helped me by giving me just that token of care, that charge of love and compassion and mutual trust and loyalty. Sorry for rambling, I guess I’m saying in a very roundabout way is, what do you think is the root cause of your sadness? For me, sometimes I think universally, it was a lack of love. Even sadness from a loss though, comes from loosing that source of love, if you really break it down to a cold, mechanical level. Once we figure out the core cause, or some of the primary drivers, we can start to articulate a plan of action as to how we can overcome these obstacles. <3
Please don’t feel down @invincible, you are such a kind and lovely person who deserves all the happiness in the world Cecelia, smile and focus on getting yourself to a better place, don’t let anything stand in your way, remember to be upbeat and keep fighting, you will make it through all of your struggles and come out stronger, believe in yourself and never give up, I’m always here if you need to chat or vent, message me anytime, my inbox is always open, you will never be alone
(hugs)