So I decided to seek professional help with my anxiety. After 10 meltdowns and 6 panick attacks, I had to shove medication down my troath and fall asleep on my kitchen table. Is not ok and I need help. This week I’ll ask my doctor to guide me to a good theurapist, but a good one. The last one I had … I have no clue how she even had a psychology degree… I really need one who gets it and gives me tools to deal with it.
I’m bringing my mother though. She’s the only one in my family that even though doesn’t understand my struggle, she tries to. She’s nice about it. So I’m asking her to come with me since words don’t come out of my mouth because I’m ashamed of my lack of self control. 2 years with this and couldn’t control it..
Anyways, I’ll figure it out this week.