I would try to talk to your boyfriend about how you feel @livinginhell, be honest with your thoughts and feelings and speak from the heart, maybe writing things down will help, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat (hugs)
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I would try to talk to your boyfriend about how you feel @livinginhell, be honest with your thoughts and feelings and speak from the heart, maybe writing things down will help, you can do it, I’m always here if you need to chat (hugs)