Avery Cabret said 10 years, 7 months ago:
I placed myself in your shoes,
and I went through an entire spectrum of emotions as I read what you had written.
I felt fear that maybe his ex girlfriend would create problems for your relationship.
I felt the happiness of your building bond,
and the joy of your first kiss.
I felt both the cold sadness and warm comfort that you both shared, after his father got into that car accident.
And when his text messages become less and less frequent, I feel fear, with a hint of anger.
I feel afraid.
I worry that your relationship is coming apart.
That you’re losing that closeness you once had, despite everything that you’re doing, to prevent it from happening.
And slowly, that worry finds its way to sadness.
Because I don’t want you to have to watch him fade from your life.
I empathize with you.
And I’m so sorry that you’re in this lonely position right now.
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You must have so many questions.
I know I do.
Does he feel the growing emotional distance, the same way that you do?
Is it difficult for him, being so far away now?
Is there someone else in his life, with whom he may be falling in love?
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It’s tough.
And whatever questions you may want to ask him,
there’s no promising that you’ll get the answers that you want to hear.
On one hand, it could be something you never would have thought.
Like that one time his father had to go to the ER because of a concussion.
On the other hand,
you might get an answer that you’ve been dreading, all along.
You could still get some answers though, you know? If anything, it might be nice to have closure.
And if you choose not to bring your thoughts and feelings up with him,
then your life will go on, with or without him.
The choice is entirely yours,
and I’d like to wish you luck.
Have a happy birthday, at the very least.
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