i’m honestly not sure whats wrong with me anymore. the other day i blacked out and after a regained consciousness, i had a voice in the back of my head. apparently he took control of me for around two days and i dont remember any of it. but the real interesting thing is he said, ”I’m the worst of you; your inner demon. You, however, are the best…[Read more]

i was trying to help my friend with getting happier after her relationship went south when someone called her. she answered and said nobody cares about me anymore. it felt like a large nail was driven into my chest but it slowly subsided. i thought, ”Im okay with being nobody because a nobody can’t hurt anybody”

well, i dont expect anyone else to read these, so ill think of it as a journal of sorts. lately i just feel numb, but the reasons are fairly obvious. what with my friend (who was my sister in all sense besides blood) commiting suicide.. i wonder what i didnt do that couldve helped, because its blatant that i didnt do enough.. her stabbing me in…[Read more]