Haven’t been on this website for a year and some months.
Unfortunately I had to deal with a unstable man who I dated who was 35 years old.
He had broken my phone two times, and put his hands on me, so I filled for a restraining order. I’ve been phoneless because I’ve been jobless for now 3 months. I’m trying to look for a good 9-5. I barely go out because I have no money, and now I have no phone.
I’m really lonely, and I miss my ex bf who I use to write about all the time. But I keep putting myself through these emotional hoops of missing, and hating him for letting me go.

In all, I feel worthless. I’m broke, the 35 that I was dating is spreading rumors about me calling me crazy, and living his life just fine. I don’t have anyone to talk to because I don’t trust any of the so called friends I had. I don’t have a job and feel like I’m going no where in life.

I feel so stuck, and rhe worst part I have my exs comment in my head replying over and over agin. Him saying that he doesn’t want to be with me because I don’t have a job, how he hates going out with me, that he got away with treating my like shit. He ,are me feel ugly, unwanted, worthless.

I’m just so confused, and so alone, I’m trying my hardest everyday to fight through the pain. But every night it keeps playing over and over again.

I feel so betrayed.