Can’t you call your therapist? Or just show up in his office? I think that what you are feeling (” I am thinking suicide so much but am too scared of death to do it but the anxiety hasnt stopped for 27 hrs and I need help”) is very serious and that you should talk asap with a professional

I havent got a number or anything. I was hoping this chat room would suppress the pain for the mean time :’(

Can no one help me now? :’(

hello there blackhole
Suicide is the worst thought which should never come to your mind because you are trying to end this beautiful life gifted to you by god an universe.Do not think like that please.
i know its tough but trust me its really not worth it.
You know we all go through such phases at some point of time in our life so does that mean all of us will kill ourselves….Obviously not .
The first thing you gotta do is that you gotta stop making someone else your source of happiness.If a specific person is not talking to you or is not in your life anymore you just cant live,that should not be the case.Agree that you like her and agree that you have strong attachment for her which makes you care for her so much but you just cannot give up on yourself so easily dude.You are way stronger than this suicidal thought and depression which you are getting right now.
First of all wipe of your tears,look in the mirror and say I LOVE YOU.Start to love yourself please because one can get suicidal thoughts only when he/she does not love his/her soul.
Agreed that at this point of time you are going through a really rough patch and it is tough for you to stay calm but do you think that getting hyper and anxious will help the matter to subside..
It wont right..so first of all you gotta start to be positive and not be thinking about what will happen next..

If a particular person leaves you in middle of nowhere does that mean your life becomes useless…no not at all..we all go through heartbreaks and we all come out of it since we know that our life has some really important purpose which we have to accomplish..so i am very sure suicide is not your lifes purpose..we all know that you are made for something better so stop giving up on yourself so easily..if today my gf would leave me i would obviously feel bad but i would not get this thought since i know i have so many beautiful things ahead of me..she is not the last girl in the world dude….yes i will be depressed and sad but just for a while because i know that if life has knocked me down its on me whether i want to stay on the ground or get back up and fight back..i know at this point of time its tough for you to do so but trust me..you will surely realize that suicide is not the solution
So dude stay strong and remove all those thoughts from your mind which make you feel so useless at this point of time..instead tell yourself that i am better than all these thoughts and i will fight out of it

Life is not to die for someone but to make sure that when you die all others remember you and appreciate what you have done for them
Will smith quoted that
Do not chase people in your life since the right people in your life will come on their own and will stay with you….and always remember that hardships never come in your life by informing you in advance..you cannot anticipate what will happen next and these problems do not go and leave you till time you do not learn from them so do not give up and be strong

Thank you so much for relieving thoughts of suicide etc, it is greatly appreciated. However what do you suggest I do about the situation with my lover. The fact of her not telling me of a ”boy mate” she met at a party who loves her. She must have been doing something wrong for him to feel INLOVE :’(

No someone else loves her, not she loves them.

But she gets confused about her feelings so I assume she took his love into consideration. Me and my lover have been through so many touch times and situations and I have always had to fight for her etc even if she was the one who messed it up, Because I am crazy about her or perhaps obsessed. And due to my anxiety and depression the smallest of events such as her meeting a boy at a party, trigger off a world of pain for me :’( everytime.

Please don’t do anything to yourself @teddyfluff11, I would try to talk to her, tell her how much you want her in your life, you deserve a strong relationship that is built on trust, I would be honest with each other, I hope things work out, I’ll always be here if you need to talk, message me anytime if you want, my inbox is always open, you are never alone (hugs)