I am a PhD student in theoretical computer science. And I love the mathematical sciences. It’s not that I don’t like other, simpler things like art, but it’s just that because of the nature of what I want to achieve, I do not get the time for these other things. I wish I did. But I don’t.
The result is that – I get lonely. Not because I don’t have friends. I do have friends. And I am lucky to have them.
I have this weird feeling to be genuinely appreciated for being me. I wish I were in a relationship. And I think I feel lonely, cuz everyone just views me as just someone to solve their math problems, since I don’t get time for any artistic activities. And it’s not anyone’s fault here. I mean, I am not blaming anyone for this. But it’s just the way it is. And I need to get over these thoughts.