I like one of my female classmates who’s also our class representative. I was about to be made the male class representative but out of nervousness of working along with her, I declined that kind of an opportunity. (She was the one who shouted out loud my name of all other boys, yes)
The thing is, she is the girl high scorer in our class, and I’m the boy’s. She also seems to hold some kind of high expectation from me which often confuses me about whether she just thinks of me as someone different from the others or someone special.
I really like her to such an extent that even my grades are dropping now, while she still scores as high as ever. And I also want to talk to her every once in a while so that I can at least get to be real friends with her, which I’ve always failed at. She approached to strike a conversation with me many times, but like the dumbass I am, I always remained silent or just ignored (I really feel depressed about it now) because of my nervousness around her, and she just went without receiving a comeback most of the time.
I have always thought of getting into a relationship only after I reach the 10th grade (I’m in 9th right now and 16y/o, while she’s about 2 years younger than me), but I’m scared that if someone would confess to her by the time I’m ready to tell her, it will be too late for me.
