twinings said 8 years, 11 months ago:
I understand how you feel, I had a best friend just like that (not really best friends now because I moved away) – she was really girly, always getting her hair and nails done and I was really geeky and a bit of tomboy. But we got along well and I felt our friendship taught me a lot and gave me the opportunity to try new things – spray tan? Never tried, ok I’ll give it a go! And I used to buy arts and crafts stuff and science kits and we’d spend whole weekends having fun
But every time we had an arguement I was always the first to apologise and after a while it really wore me down. It wasn’t that she treated me bad, it was just she didn’t treat me like I did with her. One time she heard a rumour that I’d told my boyfriend she’d cheated on someone and he told the guy and she deleted me off Facebook and deleted my number without even asking me whether it was true. It wasn’t true and I was so hurt that after years of friendship she could just throw it away without even asking me.
I’d never do something like that to her, or anyone, because even when I feel they’re in the wrong, I always see their friendship as more valuable than a silly arguement so I always make peace.
I spend my whole life being nice to people and apologising to people for stuff that isn’t my fault and it never gets any better. Just this week I’ve been poorly and my classmates have started to come down with it so they’ve been picking on me relentlessly about it and I’ve been apologising – I’ve apologised to a group of people because I have a cold!!
She doesn’t care about you less, or think of you as less of a friend, it’s just the way she expresses her feelings is different. You and I think about other people’s feelings and tailor ourselves to them, and other people don’t really think that way. It will always be like that and it will be hard at times.
You have to weigh up whether the enjoyment and fulfillment you get from the friendship is worth having to sacrifice this bit. In my case I felt like it was worth it but not all friendships are, if you are unhappy.
Hope this helps, I’m a bit new on here so just finding my feet!
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