I think you've got addicted to cutting not just these past days but a few months ago. It is just that you know started to realise that you are depending on it.For you're body it is the painkillers and hormones he is producing after each cut which started to be a normal thing for him which is why you feel bad/sad/depressed if you don't do it and you develope the urge to do it since you're body is used to it.For you're brain and mind it was the save harbour where it could run to when you felt depressed or something bad happend to you. If you feel like you're addicted to it it means that you're brain can handle itself without depending on cutting which is something you should feel great for achieving cause it show's you that you went through mental growth to step up against you're cutting and you gatherd enough own strength to deal with you're depression. You should be proud of yourself for coming this far. No, really FEEL PROUD YOU ARE AWESOME.It can be pretty hard to get away from it, my first girlfriend was also addicted to it. I don't know if you take meds or stopped takeing them which could be a factor in it. But for now my advice pretty much the same as the others.Do something fun, sing a song if you feel the urge to cut yourself, talk to you're boyfriend (if you're still with him) and try to focus your thoughts on something else. Don't carry sharp objects with you. Don't sit anywhere alone. Try to avoid rooms with knives or sissors, store them all in one room if that helps you and make you're family do the same. Try to go outside since the sun helps you with building hormones and stuff even in the winter. If it rains try to enjoy it listen to music while you lay down in the grass it smells great (even if that sounds weird^^). Try to cut less and less over time set yourself a limit for a week or so if that helps. And make other people punish you (like no mobilphone for a day/week) if you break that limit so you're motivated to stay in it.I think thats enough for now^^
If you need any help message me, contact all of us, call you're close friends but please, PLEASE don't try to do everything alone that is damn hard and there are many people that want help you (like me as an example :D).
