My worries started maybe a year and a half ago, maybe 2. It started with shyness, just a little drop in my self esteem. Getting in older grades, my dramatic, loud self had become a little more settled down and after I moved, my dog died on the night before Easter, parents broke up and I moved into town, I was sad but it didnt seem to be the reason for the worries, I just couldnt shake this nervousness. As it progress, I got scared to act the way I usually do out of fear people will not like me, hate me, or think im stupid, specially around my friends in public. When I go to speak, I got seriously nervous because I think people will take the things the wrong way, and I won’t even ask people if they want to hang out in person only over messaging because I think they’ll think i’m needy or annoying. Also I’ll get really anxious about the smallest things, like if my friend doesn’t come back from lunch at her house I think she might be in the hospital or she’s hurt or she’s gone to hang out with some else. Also previously I always thinks something wrong with me, Diabetes, Anxiety, Depression, Anemia, you name it I think theres something wrong then I’ll search up symptoms and treatment and totally stress out over it for. Not lately I’ve been doing it much, it’s like I want something to be wrong? I like attention but I don’t want too much, and sometimes I cry for almost the smallest things, not everything just sometimes. and afterwards I knew I shouldn’t have been upset and sometimes I cry for no reason. So what’s wrong with me?!
