I finally get what I wanted. FINALLY. And now I feel like I fucked something up or I am not wanted. To start off I finally went to the next level with my best friend. I’ve wanted it forever and it great. But he asked me to do something I’ve done for him before but this time, I just didn’t want to do it. He was okay with it. (a bit ‘needed to be told no a few times’ but he got it. But now I am just confused.
Here’s where everyone refused o understand.
He has a girlfriend. And I knew this going in. And I know they’re not serious. I know they are togather just to say they are togather. That simple. But, yesterday he was all lovey dovey with me and today he left. With her. I know he knew it would bother me because he left without telling me where he was going. I just don’t know what to do. I want to wait to see what happens. But at the sametime I hate feeling used and not wanted.