hello stranger, i would love some advice. why can i never be content with anything? i get super interested in something that i have yet to do, and then as soon as i start doing it my interest in it slopes to nothing until i get interested in it again. its as though i like the idea of doing things that other people enjoy more than the activity itself. i go from thing to thing to thing, expecting fulfillment out of any one thing that i try. for example, i went to the library to find a book that would change my life in some way. i wanted to have all the answers written out to me, so that i could solve all my problems at once. i ended up checking out a self help book, that turned out to be for people that have serious life hurdles. i got discouraged, and stopped reading any of it.. i tried meditation before, to gain some piece of mind, but i only “successfully” did it a couple times. i want to go to college for something but the level of interest i take in things fluctuates so much i dont know what i would do there. in a way, i believe i self-medicate. when i feel un-stimulated, i drink something caffeinated, when im bored ill smoke weed or drink a few beers and play video games. i love playing guitar, and would love to get good at it, but i discourage myself often. i am tired of being un-focused and un-commited. im sick of not achieving goals because of my fluctuating mood. i don’t know what i expect as an answer, but thanks in advance
