Can I make a suggestion? Please don't attack this, I only want to bring it up in case you've never thought about it before. Because it helped me.The past couple years I was in and out of depression. Freshman year was really bad, but I got through it. It got bad again after high school graduation. Really bad. Those months were really tough. I felt like my life had no direction. It was summer, but I wasn't seeing any of my friends and my mom was always arguing with me and I just wanted to get away. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I felt like if I could just be given the opportunity, I would have so much to offer. But I was stuck in a place where every day was the same. I doubted myself so much. What talents did I have? Why did my friends even bother hanging out with me? I was pathetic.Then my mom decided that she and I should go to family camp for a week. Oh great, I thought. It was a Christian family camp. Sure I believed in God, but in no way would you have ever guessed that I did by my actions.I know what you're thinking, another preachy Christian here. But... hear me out. Because... I changed. I met a friend there that was so deeply rooted in the spirit that I had the urge to be just like that. It was amazing, because he was so happy. So I asked God to come into my life. I had screwed it up so bad, that it couldn't get any worse. So I might as well give it a try, right?
I was... amazed. After all that time trying to change, and now finally I saw a difference. Things started going right for me. People gravitated towards me, because they saw a light in me they couldn't explain. I feel like my life has a purpose, and I know that I am loved.So that's my story. Maybe it's not for everyone, but it helped me. It changed me. I'm so hopeful now, you have no idea. I can't believe how wonderful I feel now. When I look back at the person I was, so lost in my life and unable to see the good in myself, it makes me extremely sad. If I hadn't found that friend, I don't know where I'd be now... it makes me shiver at the thought of how gloomy and dark my life would be now. But it's not anymore. (:If you wanna talk, we definitely could chat. I wish you the best, and please know that you're not alone. Things don't have to be bad for you. It can get better, just don't lose hope. ~