Although I am only a teenager, I’m capable of having ALL types of emotions. When I cry, I cry like a baby; I long for the day that I’ll come home & have a goodnight, without crying my heart out. When I am mad, I display my anger with violence, screaming, kicking, etc. (not towards others). When I am happy, I could epitomize myself as the happiest person on earth. Enough with that emotional crap, now onto my thought process. I am always dwelling on my past, not sure why. I feel like I’m a complete disappointment towards my family & overall, life. I fear the future very much, but not as much as I fear change. Now… my daily lifestyle –> Get home from school, nap a shit ton, procrastinate on productive activities (around 10PM-3AM I’ll do my hw), get into bed and think. When it’s late at night, I feel like I’m a completely different person than I was from the previous hours of the day. I over think things & start to cry about every single little thing. // I just want to be productive & stop being such a little shit all the time. p.s. I also have suicidal thoughts, but I don’t have the guts to preform the action.