i don’t know what happen. i was a good athlete with decent grades and good life. but i started to have memories and dreams. my grades droped and my proformnce in my sports has also. i have been haveing disstubering dreams about dieng in bad ways for 2 years striaght and this easter i decied just to cut then i got addictied i even licked the blade i have memories by the time i hit 5thgrade i had been to 18 funerals. and i was bullied so bad that they where like vacations. also now i only enjoy one thing witch is the show My Little Pony. its the only thing that cheers me up. i have been thinking of killing my self sometimes but im too afraid of what happens after you die to do it. im afraid of about everything right now. i have been crying alot. as a male football player and a wrestler i feel hopeless and worthless can someone help me plz give me some a light to look forward to. also no i dont have any “freinds” to talk to about it or els ill get bullied like i did and my familly is too busy to even talk to me. can some one help me
