This is probably going to be kind of a rant, but I promise there is a question at the end of it! Apologies in advance!
I’m a second year English Lit student who’s just moved back to university and I’m facing the same issues that I did in my first year, namely friends and relationships, or the distinct lack of them to be precise.
I’m a bit of a shy person. I not only have troubles approaching people, but (at least in my head) I can sometimes struggle with conversations once they’ve begun too; if I’m taken by surprise, I never know what to say and it often feels like I’m just blundering along, struggling to find the words I want or a topic to talk about. Example; just a few days ago some random girl I was walking past complimented my hair, and since we were walking in the same direction, we ended up chatting -awkwardly, from my perspective. When we went our separate ways, I realised I hadn’t even asked for her name.
My issues aren’t helped by the fact that I’m not much of a drinker at all. I never developed a liking for alcohol, and I hate having to sit in an environment with music so loud you can’t even hear yourself think, let alone anybody else talking so I’m really disinclined to go out to most pubs and clubs, which seems to be the only thing fellow students are interested in. Even societies and clubs always end with a pub-crawl, which is where all the REAL socialising seems to take place. It’s like if you’re not interested in abusing your ears and liver, people just don’t care for you as a person.
And, finally, there’s the more romantic relationships. There’s everything written above… then there’s also the fact that my sexual preferences lean more towards the kinky side. So even if I DID build up the confidence to ask a girl out, and she accepted, how would I tell her something like that without freaking her out?
All that in mind (Sorry again for the length), does anyone have any tips or advice to just help me just get out there a bit more and meet some people I can call good friends, or more? I’m not asking to be made into a fountain of confidence whose facebook friend list numbers in the thousands, I just want to be able to go to university and enjoy the company of a handful of people like I do back home.