It is that time again where I start to get depress. There has only been once for the past 8 years that I was actually happy for the seasons. The last three months are the time were friends and love ones get together to spend a night getting candy, saying what there are thankful for then being happy for the night where the lord came to earth to forgive us for our sins. I should be happy but I can’t help but be sad. I walk into stores with the sound of Christmas music in the background as people walk hand in hand with their love ones. I feel so much pain and I just walk around wondering what is wrong with me? Am I not pretty enough for someone am I not sweet and funny enough for a stranger to fall completely in love with me. I know I write about this a lot but this is the place were I go. My heart literally hurts. I’m not saying a relationship will “fix” all my problems and just because I have someone doesn’t mean im in a fairy tale were nothing is going to go bad but I wish someone could love me and that I wouldn’t be so depress for the holidays. Why is love so important to me? Why does this make me hurt. The last time I was happy was when my ex boyfriend came home for the holidays (he was in the military). I was so happy. I had him nothing else mattered besides him. I don’t want him back (he cheated on me) I want to create memories with someone and be happy not be sad