It’s the last year of my school and i have a medical entrance exam in few months, after school. The preparation requires regular study. But I can’t study. Whenever I start with a topic i feel guilty for not doing it earlier so i end up not doing it. My whole day is wasted like this. Three-fourth of the day I don’t do anything and the rest one-fourth I feel terribly guilty. At the end of every day I cry myself to sleep. I don’t want this guilt. It’s so horrible sometimes that I want to shout and throw the furniture around (of course I don’t do it). So I just sit idle or distract myself by watching a TV show and everything’s okay for a while but as soon as the episode finishes, the guilt comes back.
Most of the times my chest feels empty and there’s a sickening feeling in my stomach.
I can’t talk to my family. They are going to take it in the wrong sense. So, help!