I’m getting so sick of my self loathing it’s ridiculous. My social skills have dropped to a point where I have to hide in the toilets at lunch if I don’t know anyone. I have no confidence, terrible intimacy problems when I get close to anyone who likes me. I’m too scared to get help from a counsellor at college and I have to spend every evening back from college just trying to find what little motivation I can to keep going.
I’m stuck in a loop and it’s the worst feeling. I’ve tried telling myself to “man up” and to get over it but I always keep coming back to this same shitty feeling.
If anyone has any guidance or stories that might help it would be appreciated.
thanks