In the last few years so much has happened I got out of an abusive home, I came out, I moved in with my drunk of a granddad, my mom got really sick, I have gotten really sick, my girlfriend started self harming, I stopped being able to eat and on and on. Really that’s the last four years for me. Now I am trying to get off my butt and start doing things again. Its just really hard. I am still very sick and have only been out of the hospital for a month, plus I have night mares every night and seem unable to stop losing weight.
I really have no idea how I am going to get up and have a semi normal life again. It seems as if I have fallen and every time I stand up something happens and I fall over again. I want so badly not to slip back in to my old habits because they where really self destructive, but at the same time I hate being stuck here in this place. I know that in the world we in you have to fight for everything you want and fight to keep everything you have, but I am so tired of fighting. I shouldn’t have to struggle to get my confidence up, just so I can get out of bed.
I know I sound like some dramatic teenager, but really that’s what I am. If you are still willing to help me out you are truly amazing, thank you.
