but im not gay, and its really fking annoying because i cant open my mouth infront of someone for the first time without them thinking of me differently
There are many speech therapists out there that you may be able to talk to in order to over come the "gay voice" you're speaking of. They can help you work with how to form the words in your mouth. It's how they help actors and actresses over come long standing accents based on their home residence.
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