So basically, I started seeing my brothers friend over the summer. After awhile, we spent a lot of time together. I was soosoo happy when I was with him. The was we looked at eachother was unexplainable. “Friends” don’t look at eachother like that. We couldn’t tell anyone because there’s a 3yr. age gap. My mom wouldn’t understand. I hate the fact she thinks she can tell me who I can and can’t love. He’s very attractive, athletic and popular. So I’m pretty sure that was another reason. It would look bad if he was seeing someone 3 years younger and I understand that. People are cruel. Anyways, we admitted our feelings for each other. Waking up beside him was the best feeling ever. He never pressured me for sex. I knew how badly he wanted to though, he never mentioned it. We were very close. I never said it, but I’d risk everything for him. I’ve never been so comfortable in front of a guy.I knew this fling wasn’t going to continue. I mean, it couldn’t right? When school started, we ended. At the end of summer, I lost my virginity to him. I remember he ended things once with me during summer and ended up missing me. When I went to his house he just held me. He told me over and over he missed me. And the way he looked at me? It was unexplainable. Whenever, I see him in the halls he gives me the same look. Every time. He has a girlfriend now, but a couple days before they started dating he told me to comeover and he just wants to see me. I didn’t go. I knew I wouldn’t be able to leave without breaking down. Should I fight for him, or move on? I’m not ready to let go and this summer was to good to forget.
