OK so I’ve been in-love with my best friend for two years now, i remember the first time we met ; we were at this orientation thing and we were with a mutual friend and we were all joking and laughing with each other and me and him just had this connection and we’ve been inseparable ever since. at first i just thought of him as a friend but as time grew on i discovered we had a lot in common , and i realized he was actually very cute.
now i have to stop right here and tell all of you listeners something , i have this weird thing that if i like somebody i have a real hard time making eye contact with them, and it really annoying!!!
anyways, we were always together and he never showed any signs he was interested in me , but he would always grab on to my arm when we walked or gave me hugs when we say goodbye ( and i know that’s what you do when you say goodbye you give hugs , but this is like every time , every single time….<3) but one day i really noticed a change in him, when we were at a party and his friend asked him did he like thick girls he replied yeah " i like them curvy" or something like that and i was like well i guess he doesn't like me because I'm skinny, but when we walked away from his friend he looked towards me and he was like "your kinda thick too" and i was shocked because i weigh 120 pounds with no curves what so ever, and every time i told him I'm not he kept on making excuses anyway , so i really don't know what that's about , very weird . and that whole day he was protective over me and he's never like that. and everybody always thought we should go out.
but up until recently our relationship has been a little weird , like we still hangout all of the time but we don't talk like we used to, we don't have any deep conversations anymore we just talk about gossip and everything , and i think its because he realized he has feelings for me two so now were both kinda awkward with each other.
and every time i get on the phone with him i regret it because i never tell the most important thing i want to to tell him "i love you" and i think its because I'm scared of rejection, and ruining are friendship, it would mean a lot to me if some one could give me some guidance<3
