For a while I’ve had this thing where I’ve felt the desire to feel emotional pain. I don’t know why I do this (I mean, there are possible reasons, but I don’t know if it’s exactly that), but I love the feeling I get when I think of a sad situation and my heart begins to ache. I looked it up and apparently it’s a kind of self destructive behaviour. I hate it, but I love it at the same time. But I also feel bad for liking it because it’s so odd and I shouldn’t be feeling sad! God, what the heck is wrong with me?
