I’m not a depressive person but lately I’ve been in a real rut. I’m not happy with anything around me. My future looks dismal because the dreams I had of my future that once seemed cool and hip are now looking like I’m going to be one of those older ladies who just can’t let go of their youth. I want to age gracefully. My over active imagination just makes real life dull. I’m about to be 25 and I’m just working a nothing job because I can’t decide what I want to do in life. I’m still ages away from actually having a degree because I keep switching around my degree and now I’m to the point that I’ve failed enough college courses that I need to pay back the money first before I can take more and maybe mature a little more. I haven’t had any motivation to even go to the classes because they don’t interest me anymore.
I didn’t realize I was this unhappy or this stressed about it and other things in my life until my recent visit to the dentist informed me that I’m locking my jaw and grinding my teeth in what according to them is from stress. I’ve always said that I don’t get stressed and the few times in the past that I have gotten what I consider stressed, it manifested in a completely different way.
What I guess I’m aiming for is just a couple of outsider view points or advice. What can I do to make myself feel less stressed? I already go running every day. I take time on the weekends to relax and do things with friends and I’m always chatting with friends when I get an opportunity. I hate seeming weak which is why I don’t really talk to them about this kind of stuff. It pains and embarrasses me to think that I’m weak in front of other people. My pride just won’t allow me to do otherwise.
