my mom never lets me go anywhere!!!


My mom is so fucking horrible. I cant tell her anything, she never listens. shes always on her fucking phone playing her crap games. Everytime i try to tell her what i did at school, shes not even listening. shes just looking at her phone and repeating, “mhmm, ok”
i admit, ive done some pretty bad things. she saw my swearing messages, she saw me talk to boys online, etc. This is all her fault. If she let me go out, i wouldnt have to be living on my phone, talking to strangers because i have no one to talk to. My best friend is moving in 2 weeks and i cry everytime i think about her leaving. I went trick or treating with her once. My mom never let me do anything else with her. she lives 2-5 minutes away by walking. I want to kill myself, but i cant because i dont want to go to hell. It makes no sense. god gives me this shit life and expect me to love it. My mom is also very abusive. when i was 10, i told her i had a crush and she threatend that my dad would kill me if he knew. i cant tell her anything anymore. I cant control my crushes. she has to know god gave us this feeling, and it doesnt hurt anyone so its not bad. she even made me swear to get above a 75% average at highschool so i can go to a university near me so i dont have to live in a dorm room. My brother does. she is very sexist. She let my brother go somewhere 1.5 hours with his friend, and she wont even let me go somewhere with my best friend who is 4 minutes away. i tried talking to her. i didnt do something bad that made me deserve her being my mom. i dont deserve this life. everyone and i deserve a better life. you dont understand my life. i act so happy at school. read my last posts and you would understand. she doesnt even let walk to school with my friend (20 minutes away by walking) i have to take the bus.

Category: Tags: asked June 9, 2015

2 Answers

Don't worry. I know what this is like. I had the same thing happen to me growing up.
Okay, first off, please don't kill yourself! I promise things can and will get better as long as you keep trying to find hope. If you end everything, you could miss out on actually getting the chance to be with someone you love, finding new friends, etc.
The main problem seems to be that as a girl, your mother seems to be WAAAY more protective of you than your brother. It's common in some cultures. (I'm Hispanic. My grandmother didn't let me and my sister at 21 and 24 respectively, spend one hour alone in the house whereas she let her 11, 9, and 6 year old sons stay home alone for hours! Needless to say, my sister and I thought it was stupid.) Now, sometimes parents can seem overly cruel when sometimes they just want to protect you. Instead of keeping you out of trouble, these parents don't realize they're smothering you! I could understand the stress of wanting your own freedom.
I've read your previous posts just now and I say, first of all, tell a teacher what's going on at home. If your mom is hurting you, you need to let someone know and the school is required to tell the law about what's happening. I would suggest calling the Child Protective Services hotline (Pm me for the number and other details, it's no problem.) but I don't know if you'll have privacy to make the call. If not, tell a teacher or the counselor at your school and tell them what's happening, and make sure they don't tell your parents if possible. I don't want you to get in trouble.
Now, forgive me if I'm wrong, but from what you said, I believe you're Christian? In times of trouble, you could always open the bible and try and take comfort in God's words, and don't ever be afraid to ask Him to help you and guide you. Be strong. I know you can be.
(PS, when you go to college, try checking out a martial art class. It does wonders for self esteem. It sounds crazy, but it did a lot for me and my problems post-abuse.)
God bless you, and I'll pray for you to find happiness.
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