My mom is so fucking horrible. I cant tell her anything, she never listens. shes always on her fucking phone playing her crap games. Everytime i try to tell her what i did at school, shes not even listening. shes just looking at her phone and repeating, “mhmm, ok”
i admit, ive done some pretty bad things. she saw my swearing messages, she saw me talk to boys online, etc. This is all her fault. If she let me go out, i wouldnt have to be living on my phone, talking to strangers because i have no one to talk to. My best friend is moving in 2 weeks and i cry everytime i think about her leaving. I went trick or treating with her once. My mom never let me do anything else with her. she lives 2-5 minutes away by walking. I want to kill myself, but i cant because i dont want to go to hell. It makes no sense. god gives me this shit life and expect me to love it. My mom is also very abusive. when i was 10, i told her i had a crush and she threatend that my dad would kill me if he knew. i cant tell her anything anymore. I cant control my crushes. she has to know god gave us this feeling, and it doesnt hurt anyone so its not bad. she even made me swear to get above a 75% average at highschool so i can go to a university near me so i dont have to live in a dorm room. My brother does. she is very sexist. She let my brother go somewhere 1.5 hours with his friend, and she wont even let me go somewhere with my best friend who is 4 minutes away. i tried talking to her. i didnt do something bad that made me deserve her being my mom. i dont deserve this life. everyone and i deserve a better life. you dont understand my life. i act so happy at school. read my last posts and you would understand. she doesnt even let walk to school with my friend (20 minutes away by walking) i have to take the bus.