I understand that these things hurt and you think up of tons of situations as to how things could have went instead of what they were.It's been a year and a lot of people will tell you move on, and that's what I suggest too. A guy who lied to you doesn't deserve your time or your thoughts, let alone your life. There are many people who care for you in this world so you should put your effort into them instead of mauling over what was and what could have been.It may be hard, but have the strength to believe in yourself. Because I believe in you. :)