Is there really something wrong with me?

I recently did a rotation on a mental health unit. The interview with my patient made me really worry that there is something wrong with me… The patient was institutionalized for depression and suicidal ideation. Literally everything she said I could not only understand, but completely relate to. The thing that bothers me most, however, is this: her “reason for admit” was “wondering what it would be like to jump off the ***** bridge.” I am not suicidal at all, but I have (quite often) thought about what it would be like to jump off the same bridge, get into a car accident, walk in front of a car, or something of similar horror… Is there something wrong with me, too?

Category: Depression asked March 5, 2014

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OneDayAtATime

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You're fine, everyone thinks about it. You walk up to a cliff edge and think 'What would it feel like if the ground gave way right now or if I were to just jump?'
I think everyone has thoughts of 'what if...' imagining the freedom of breaking from the confines of our sanity perhaps. The difference is deciding to cross that line and being aware that the negative consequences would far outweigh the short thrill of new experience.
Sometimes I scare myself when I'm stressed or angry and I feel like just stepping out in front of cars/trains. Luckily my instinct for self-preservation has stopped me so far.

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Quiet Island

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The thing that you think of them as horror tells that nothing is wrong with you. May be because of dealing with so many people of the sort has made you wonder over those situations. But all said you should be really careful about something as this because it may just be a beginning of something horrible. Many people think the same way but it doesn't always means that something is wrong with them.What matters is that if you love your life then you wouldn't go and do such a thing. But if it is otherwise then you should definitely seek some professional help before things go out of hand.

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Jai

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