Is Life As Hopeless As It Seems?

So I’ve suffered from depression for about a year now, and things just seem to be getting more and more bleak each passing day. I have only a few friends, along with a few I met online (yes, I know how that sounds), and as an introverted outcast, making new ones is kind of…”impossible” is a bit too extreme of a word, but it certainly seems fitting. Half the time, I’m not really even noticed by people anyway, and when I am noticed, people treat me oddly, like they’re afraid of offending me or something similar. On top of that, I have basically no life. I know that sounds rather noncommittal to say, but it essentially sums things up. The irony of it all is that I know exactly what I need to do to “fix” my life, but I quite simply have no desire or energy to. I’m almost past the point of caring. Therapy basically did nothing for me, and I’m not really sure what to do. I think of suicide quite a bit as well…not now, rather, but a few years from now.

Category: Depression asked September 21, 2013

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Vamps

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I'm in exactly the same situation. All I can tell you is that, as far as I can tell, life only has whatever meaning you ascribe to it. Find something that matters to you, ignore rather or not it matters to other people or rather or not other people think you have your "priorities straight" and just immerse yourself in it as much as you can. That's how I've managed this long anyway.

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Echo

My dear friend went through that as well. she wanted to die because nothing on earth needed her, she thought. Our thoughts are limited we have no idea what or how people will react if you're gone. Mothers will fall apart, friends would regret and think "what if" 'This could of been preventable" Whether you know it or not people look up to you and admire your every move- even if their miles away or speak another language. I felt that way years ago when no one talked to me and I was "that quiet kid" or "that creepy short girl''. I've never had depression but that friend, my friend, she felt ill to the stomach when she was alone. she wondered one day if people will notice if she were to die. I cried that day. I cried and hugged her as long as I could, I can't imagine her leaving. hang on to the little things, even if their microscopic. "We never live; we are always in the expectation of living." Voltaire People will always listen, people will always judge, and people will always wonder about tomorrow. tomorrow can change, if we make it change, but it can also take you where you need to be!sorry for the grammar by the way >.<

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Marsha M.

I completely understand what you are going through right now, and all I can tell you is how I've made it thus far. I have this philosophy of "it gets better" every time something bad happens to me. When I'm having a crappy day, I just whisper those words to myself until I finally come to my senses. I'm not going to tell you to make out of this world decisions if you are not in a place to do make them right now. I know for a fact if you do that and you're not ready, it can completely make you feel the opposite of what you were hoping for. Sometimes, I get this twinge in my stomach when I feel like I need to do something proactive, and those are the moments I suggest you act upon. NOT after a really long, rough day. Your thoughts are not the clearest then. Anyways, I hope some of my suggestions helped and fight strong. Don't let this depression take you away from the rest of your life.

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Morgan