Is it weird to want to be triggered?

Sometimes I feel that there is no such thing as "Triggering" I mean it just happens. I have people saying things to me that make me really unhappy then I feel the need to cut because I need to. But sometimes in my mind I guess I trigger myself and do it because I want to. I mean I can look on Tumbler and I am perfectly fine it, doesn't really have an affect on me, Basically sometimes you just want to do it, but you feel like you have no reason to so you try and find a reason. The is no such thing as "Normal" Because we are all different, and sometimes we feel the need and sometimes we don't.

not at all, i do it too time from time. It might be because you feel like you dont deserve a good day and when your day isn't triggering enough you have a desire to still feel down or cut. It's most likely not part of your conscience thinking but, when depression hits someone so hard their self worth has hit bottom, your sub conscience is always there to whisper negative things into your life- aka triggering yourself purposefully.

You are looking to relate, to belong. If you do it too, then you can feel like you are not alone, because being a "former" cutter makes you feel alienated from those who "are", when you still have the urge.

You are among friends here at BlahTherapy. We understand your troubles and we relate to your pain. Do not hurt yourself, because you matter, and you are not alone.

It's like I have certain good days and I feel like I don't deserve those good days. I hate being happy one second and then back to being depressed. I want consistency. I always feel guilty like I need to be punished. I just want to hit myself over and over and over. Some days, I literally just don't have the energy to do it so I look on the self harm or depression tag on tumblr.

Binging and purging is a huge trigger of mine. Usually I avoid it like the plague, but occasionally I will do the same things you seem to be doing. I suppose our minds just like digging up old garbage.

You're definitely not alone. I find myself way too often on the proana, promia, self harm tags. I know exactly what you're feeling like a part of you knows it's the worst idea and the other half wants it so bad. It usually ends with me more upset than I was before I opened my browser to tumblr, but I still do it all the time.

LissaJade, that's exactly it. I want to do it so bad but I need a reason to so I try to force one