Is it normal to feel ashamed and embarrassed?

You don't overcome the fear yet, what happens is you will hold it in for too long and just explode! Usually on the people you love. What you should do is talk to your parents but if that hits too close to home, talk to a stranger, vent. Look up counseling in your area online if you think you need it. And keep this in mind, "Depression is a flaw in chemicals, no character." There's nothing "wrong" with you, we all go through stuff. Now let's get through this.

I'm general okay talking to strangers. It's people I know that make me freaked out especially face to face. I would look for counseling but I am an unemployed high school student. I can't pay for anything without my parents credit card being charged.

The best way to get help is to just bite the bullet and ask for it. It may make you feel uncomfortable, but you will be better for having faced that discomfort, and doing what you knew was better for yourself.

Just do it. Don't mull over it and give yourself time to work up severe anxiety that will just talk you out of it. Write everything down that you need to talk about and the very next time you pass by a counselor's office, just go inside and blurt out that you need to talk, then hand the note to the counselor and they will talk to you about your problems.

You need help. Get it. To get it, you have to ask for it. I wish you luck, and always remember that you are among friends here at BlahTherapy.

Never forget that your flaws do not make your life any less valid. Most importantly, never forget that you matter, and you are not alone.