I usually have thoughts of suicide whenever I’m alone or listening to music or watching tv all by myself. I usually visualize in my head about certain scenes/situations that I can see myself hanged somewhere with people crying before me. Sometimes it’s not just suicide I visualize about but sometimes having a very lethal illnesses like cancer, leukemia, tb, or any illness or any accident of it all that will ultimately lead to death. And the weird part of it is, I’m having a very optimistic feelings about these thoughts and visions that I have. Should I be worried?